penyakitan

it's been a while, i know. i forgot to blog about the results for my second blood test. so it's confirmed. i.am.thalassemic. beta thalassemia minor, to be exact. no biggie. it's just that i'm probably slightly paler than most people. And as i mentioned before, I may COLLAPSE anytime. not funny.

so the thing is, when i get married...let me rephrase...IF i get married, i must make sure that my future husband isnt thalassemic too. hmmph. btw, i had a dream last night. mimpi kena patuk ular. does this have anything to do with anything? nah...probably not. not for me at least..huhu..

Natijahnya, "Sudahkah anda menjalani ujian talasemia?"

Amy Mastura (",)

Slept with a smile on my face last night...;p

'HAPPY Ramadhan with Amy Mastura'...that's what made my day yesterday..

She was everything that i imagined she would be. Down to earth, funny, sweet, with a smile forever pasted on her face...

Met her twice before, once in sarawak, and once in sabah...but this time....it was extra special. i get to spent time with her with less crowd breathing near my neck...for a good 3-4 hours. Even managed to sneak a few chats with her one on one...;p

owh and she kinda reminds me of hanis zalikha in a way...mcm ada iras pulak in certain angles..

yeah i'm HAPPY.

just one pic for a sneak peak...;p

microcytic hypochromic anaemia

can't help but feel somewhat intelligent whenever i say it...

that's what i was diagnosed with. but that's just the first stage...so i need go for "further investigation".....

i might still be anaemic. But most probably, i'll be thalassemic (setelah digoogle sbb xreti nk eja)....coz my mom just found out that she has minor thalassemia...so yeah...

well this 'so called' condition has almost cost me my new job offer...they said i could "collapse" anytime....sigh...hope not..

so this Pathlab that i went to this morning is gonna determine what my real condition is...whatever it is, wish me luck...

for the job, i mean...

some pics from my phone

just wanna store some of the pictures i took using my cell. a little momento. each picture sends me back to the time when i took them. and they make me smile..

first up...me n my sis o'ol..always love annoying pictures like this

us again..me trying to look cute but ended up looking choked, as always

the day i received my package of umm zakiyyah's books

my cousin sufi, at his soccer practise...'twas great fun watching lil kids play football...so cute

nabil sufi

a blooming sunflower at my workplace...eng fac, upm.

third eye!! my cute lil doodoll...owh he's not exactly little btw...huhuhu

my brother nazrin, when he just got back from school

the beach near my home...konon2 kmpg nelayan yg aman damai la kan...walaoponnn.

midvalley parking space...amik gamba sbb takut xjumpa keta...i should get rid of this one i know

this was the time when a friend spilled her green apple kasturi when we had dinner at secret recipe alamanda. sedih..

Riri, Kak eli's daughter's birthday

i secretly took this pic at a warehouse sale in damansara n mms it to my mom...bought one for her later (with her money) ;p

little damia..with her crazy hair huhuhu..hey sexy lady!

luv this. geram pipi tembam

our cat, miley, sleeping in a basket...how cute

the three of us... with me barely making it into the picture.

They're HERE!!!

*Jumping up and down excitedly* The books are here!! The books are here!! i was momentarily hysterical (don't i always...*roll eyes*) when i was handed the much awaited parcel.. syiok banget!!

Here it is...

to: neena kemp

The trilogy;

If I Should Speak

A Voice

Footsteps

and

Realities of Submission

I've been searching hi n lo for these books for so long and now here they are...

came to me directly from The States

*happy*

episodes

hhmmphh...after a few episodes of unfortunate events that happened lately...i feel kinda depressed, and when i'm depressed, i'll start to feel very lonely...like i'm all alone. like "i'm not alone but i'm lonely" sorta thing, if u know what i mean..

and when i'm lonely, i'll start to miss my family. my home, my cat, i'll bring myself back to the old times and i'll have this hollow feeling inside me that i could not explain..like a jigsaw puzzle with a missing piece..i dunno.

empty. yes, that's it. empty...

asal dramatic sgt entry kali ni? entah.

my achy breaky heart

i just dont understand myself. my emotional-dramatic-irrational-sensitive self. will i ever find out who i really am? the real me? pelik2. will anybody ever understand me? is there gonna be someone out there who will truly accept me for who i am...no questions asked? without ever being

oh-so-judgmental??

probably not.

i cant even handle myself hahaha....

note to self:

change for the better...

just uploaded..

had a bit of a chat with kak zai tadi...sambil2 tu dok share gamba2 petunangan nana. pastu baru teringat, masa post pasal pegi majlis nana haritu, tak upload pn gamba2 kan? hmmph..beklah. so let me...

me, meg and zaza on our way to temerloh (dun worry, the car's in a complete stop ;p)

girl's road trip..

the bride to be...

now someone's fiancee

yes. me with the kids...

Barney is a dinasour from our imagination,

and when he's tall he's what we call.....

somehow this particular kid caught my attention...wanna know why?...she reminded me so much of my childhood. i used to look a lot like her, the hair and all..back when i was a sumkinda loner in my own weird way..sigh...painful memories...

Huda in action...cousin nana pny anak...huhuhu...combel.

here and there and everywhere

hmm...let me just jot a few things down here for safekeeping...

- kak eli pindah fakulti layen..

- men bedminten pukul angin

- mikail meninggal

- columbia asia hospital

- aksi lucah sang cicaks

- durian free

sah? sah malas nk update...

apa lagi ek?

yes, i have short-term memory loss.

should i??

i'm in a dilemma here. a few circumstances.............and i'm standing all alone, in front of a diverged road. i'm just confused....should i take it? should i be happy? should i be depressed? i choose. yeah i know. yet i still have people around me that will definitely affect my decision. and my decision will definitely give an effect on THEM.

but now, it's like i dont feel anything, my feelings are numb, i dont know what to think, i dont know what to do, i have no idea what to make of ANYTHING right now. GOD help me. help me be the person i'm supposed to be. YOU are the one who knows me best. decisions...decisions...

here's some Robert Frost to sum things up..

The road not taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

Gosh my eyelid's bothering me...it wont stop twitching...i need sleep...;p

nana's engagement

drove to temerloh with zaza n meg last sunday... left home at 7.30 to pick up meg at the ktm, and off we go. owh before that, had a bit of a pit stop at tmn melati's petrol station for some McD's drive-thru bfast. lepas tol, benti kat tepi jalan and makan!!! took me a good 5 minutes to finish preparing my coffee...hahaha...after bfast...we started our road trip(road trip ke?) bound for temerloh, pahang.

owh lupa lak nk cakap pegi temerloh ni watpe senanyer. okeh. ni nk habaq. pegi nana tunang...eh paham ke tak ni? pegi menghadiri majlis pertunangan (ayat hasil tunjuk ajar zaza) nana.

ye...menarik juge...walupon balik tu agakla kejang kaki sbb jam takhengat...nk tekencing satu hal...nk kencing pn jam...lepas kencing jam lagi...doh stop citer pasal kencing....but it was a fun trip nonetheless... *grins*

congrats nana n im...

rush...

Ugghhh...i suck at blogging...malas giler...i live my days with words and pictures that i plan to put up on my blog.....pi mana2 je dok karang ayat dlm kepala n amik gamba kononnyer nk post kt cni. sudahnyer?? nan ado!!

agakla bz katanya konon kan...well dua hari ni dok pegi Read Malaysia 09 book fair kat the mines...spending 2 days in a row in a hall filled with books....is heaven. i got this incredible rush that runs thru my body the moment i stepped into the great hall. memang meremang wa cakap lu....HUWAAA!! bestnye!!!

UUuuu...AND...AND...!!! there was this music asia thing going on just outside the convention hall. WHOA!! i tell u....my 2 worlds collide....the two things that make my life go round...books and music!! Things just COULDNT get any better than that...( i wont be surprised if i find myself going there again selagi pameran blom abis....ngehngeh)....and there were LOADS of cheap pianos ( going all WIDE_EYED like a kid in a Hensel and Gretel movie). This is the life.

And so my weekend was filled. and i mean really...FILLED. Alhamdulillah...

diet coke, anyone??

first time try minum diet coke arini. Saja nk try sbb xpenah try. BLEGGHHHHH.....!!!!! Macam PANADOL!!! And i freakin HATE pills... eeewww...i can still taste it in my mouth...remind me to never EVER choose diet coke EVER again.

out-stationed? not really.

DAY 1

breakfast in serdang, slangor - lunch in bukit katil, melaka - dinner in seri kembangan, selangor.

DAY 2

breakfast in bangi, selangor - lunch in bukit katil, melaka - dinner in serdang, selangor. WOH!!!! DASAT...

that's a glimpse of how it's like being Dr ct's PA RA for you....go Neena!!

Did Old McDonald have a rabbit in his farm??

HA....HA...takup2.....Ngeee....COMEY kan? pakai celak bagai....My favourite pic of the month...jd wallpaper seyhhh

Kinda busy lately. Well who isnt? agak malas nk apdet blog sbb blk umah pn wat keje..wlupun mls xhingat nk wat..

so aritu pegi rabbit farm..

and of course...snappy2!!

cam kenggeru

cam puppy

cam biskut salut kelapa wakaka!! eh tak, macam kuih kasui kaler putih HAHAH!!

cam tikus...eee...scary




tinger pendek dao



dok diam2 pakai stokin




introducing...'Aisyah (sebut betol2)...ayat2 chenta

Huwaaa!! can i have it mommy?? pretty pleasee.....with sugar on top..? *sad puppy eyes*

anak2 'aisyah ngan faHri...nampak mata syaaaaaakkk!!!!

cam hamster...pe pandang2?!

cam kambeng...kahkah!!

cam stuffed toy, is it even real??

hope it's not too late...

It's not too late to apologise, is it? (merasalah nyanyi lagu One Republic bagai, kannn)

well my last entry was a bit harsh..ok it was SUPER HARSH.

so i'd like to squeeze myself dry from all the hatred. And accept. Qada' and Qadar. Ada hikmah di sebalik semua ni....it's just another test.

a test that i didnt get to study beforehand.

just have to look at the glass as half FULL, instead of half empty.

NGEH NGEH..kelakar pulak bila baca balik post tesebut...tetiba terasa takut dgn diri sendiri...WOH WOH!! ayat je yg kemain cam BERANI TAK HINGAT....padahal....takut gak senanye...tulis memang la berani...cuba kalu dh dpn batang idong...mau tekulat2 dibuatnye! HEH!! ok bye...sorry for venting out in this blog...tu je yg bole buat pon...xtau nk wat apa lagi haaa......

For the first time, i didnt cry. unbelievable? believe it. (YAYyyy ME!!! ClapClap!!)

WTF!!

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAAA....for the first time ever nk wat entry mencarut barut sumpah seranah mak minah kat cni.

WHAT is your FREAKIN problem???
Are you out of your MIND??

Did i DO anything to you?
kenape???? aku betul2 tak paham.

(this line was deleted to protect the wellbeing of the blog..)

i hope you get your butt stuck in the toilet tonight.

to the others, excuse my french. i'm just pissed. sorry.

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sian awatif..;(

I'd like to convince myself that you're just a kid who doesn't know any better. coz if you're not, COWARD is what you are.

Ever heard of karma? yes, that.

Preposterous!

Free-IQTest.net - IQ Test

LOH???!!!

Impossible....gilo ko hapo iq test neh...tak paham aku. Haruslah jd professor kat Harvard Uni skarang jugak!!

BERTUKAR!!!!!
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I've found my calling!!! Heh. yeah rite.