Now that we have that sorted out, let's talk. My childhood bestie is getting hitched. Next month. On the 13th. And I know it sounds ridiculous, but i think I'm experiencing a some sort of pre-wedding depression.
We grew up together, I've known her since before i even started kindies. Sleepovers, countless bike rides, alley adventures, birthday parties, tuition classes, piano classes, neighbourhood pranks, crazy dog chase, video games, Mount Kinabalu climb, home made ice creams, swimming pool weekends, matching outfits, pengawas yg suka ambik kesempatan, jammed-school-toilet-door catastrophe, Mother's day recitals, making up corny songs, and who can forget,
And then, when we were 15, her family moved to Melaka. That was really hard for me. I was so used to walking across the road to her house for no reason at all. I miss dialing her house number that i still know by heart. I felt so alone. She's always been a part of me. I mean, my mom made us wear matching mickey mouse tights for goodness sake! LOL.
We kept in touch, we wrote letters... And then I flew to Sabah, she flew to Australia. E-mail, Friendster, Facebook. That was it. We meet up a few times every now and then. Either i flew over or vice versa.
And now..we're both turning 29.
One day, just before dinner, I received a picture via whatsapp. Of her and her mother and two other Makciks. One of the makciks were slipping a ring on her finger.
Don't get me wrong, of course I'm happy for her. It's like when your sister/brother gets married, you're bound to get more or less depressed right? I mean, that's when you begin to realize that everything will never be the same again. That's when you remember all the good times you used to have. That's what's going on with me right now. Memories and the inevitable future are all jumbled up in my head and all i can do is just march forward. One step at a time, kan.
It's happening very soon and I have to buckle up. I can't wait! Tapi i have to admit i'm sort of dreading it at the same time. Mixed feelings la senang cerita. Whatever it is, I will try not to break down and cry my eyes out...too much ( But where's the fun in that?) haha... and plus, I'm the pengapit.
Don't get me wrong, of course I'm happy for her. It's like when your sister/brother gets married, you're bound to get more or less depressed right? I mean, that's when you begin to realize that everything will never be the same again. That's when you remember all the good times you used to have. That's what's going on with me right now. Memories and the inevitable future are all jumbled up in my head and all i can do is just march forward. One step at a time, kan.
It's happening very soon and I have to buckle up. I can't wait! Tapi i have to admit i'm sort of dreading it at the same time. Mixed feelings la senang cerita. Whatever it is, I will try not to break down and cry my eyes out...too much ( But where's the fun in that?) haha... and plus, I'm the pengapit.
