Not Yet A Woman

Can't sleep.

2012-01-28T01:26:00.001+08:00

It's 1:00 am and i can't sleep. And i have work tomorrow. Yes on a saturday. I work half day on saturdays.

So as i was saying, i've been tossing and turning, but my mind is still wide awake. I keep thinking about...things. Nonsense. Mostly. Teeny tiny little things that aren't supposed to matter but they bother you, still. I can't put my finger on exactly what they are but they're there. All jumbled up in my head. Lingering. Hanging. Auff.

I guess you can tell that i'm actually just typing away here. I don't really know what i'm talking about. I'm not making any sense but i keep going anyway. You shouldn't be reading this cause if you are, you're better off doing something else. Like watching the paint dry or something. Or have some nuggets or something.

I'm actually typing this with one eye closed. You see i'm myopic. But this rabunness has become so bad that without my glasses, i can't even read unless the thing's a few inches, say 15cms, away from my nose. And i have to focus with only one eye because the degrees for each eyes are relatively different. In short, i go juling without my glasses.

I'm babbling aren't i. Ok i better sleep now. Getting dizzy typing and seeing with only one eye. Plus silau summore in this darkness. Goodnight.

Here's my window. No edit, no filter. Just, window.

You reckon?

2012-01-19T07:33:00.002+08:00

I reckon i should start blogging again. I want something to look back to as i go along. Some memories i can hold on to, not just vaguely in my head, and not exactly on print, either. Just here, floating around on the internet. Forever.

But mostly because i have access to my blog account on my phone now so i ran out of excuses NOT to update my blog (unless i don't have internet or the line's sucky 'fcourse). But i foresee my entries are gonna be shorter this time around. First, cause i'll be composing on my phone. Second, cause i'm so used to twitter already. But, i'll see what i can do ;p. So yeah.

Hmm..I have tons of unpublished drafts since yesteryear so i might come up with old, outdated news somewhere along the line. So, check out them old calender if you're interested. Cause i'll prolly publish them as per the date i drafted them so i won't get my chronology mixed up. Or something.
Till next time! Chiao!

Me and my uncoordinated self

2011-04-22T18:24:00.008+08:00

I'm definitely a pro when it comes to embarrassing myself in front of everybody. But my specialty is of course, slipping and falling.

Ok.
Let me just list down a few off the top of my head.

In UMS alone,

I once fell in front of the library. Was walking alone at the time and I was quite sure nobody was looking.
I stumbled and fell hard and hurt my knee on my way up the stairs to my hostel room.
I knocked myself silly (with a BIG LOUD BANG) after I ran my head into a huge stupid sign board. (on my defense, the sign board was too low and i was walking with my head down) My friends were practically rolling with laughter for what seemed like hours.
And a few others..

One time I fell right outside the back entrance of Low Yat. And when I say Low Yat, u can bet there were many witnesses. And I fell to a prostrate position summore. Sujud ngkau. Lutut lebam sebulan. Sakit weyh time nak sujud betul-betul. Hahah!!

And just a few days ago I fell, not before I did a bit of some wiggly wobbly dance routine, on a bowling lane. Right after I released my ball down the lane.

*Maybe there's no need to mention I've also proudly threw the bowling ball backwards a coupla times before*

May I remind u that those were just SOME of my unfortunate moments. The truth is, these things happen to me ever since I can remember. Having scraped my knee ALMOST EVERYTIME I started running.

Dulu, laa...

Uuuuu...!! I remembered another one that happened end of last year. I got run over by a kid. The kid was on a bicycle. With training wheels. At the main entrance of a shopping mall in Penang. I nearly kissed the floor. No kidding. I was holding an open umbrella. Imagine.

Anyhoo, I came across this blog where the writer shares this wonderful trait with me. Her latest 'incident' cracks me up BIG TIME. I can totally relate.

And I think you should read it too. Lawak giler dowh. HERE. ^_*

I'm thinking my abnormally small feet have something to do with my terrible balance. But I'm not too sure =p

It makes perfect sense, doesn't it?

2011-04-12T14:26:00.004+08:00

Nice photography of muslim women like this, is quite rare on the net.

Know what my favourite part of this picture is? The scarf around the bag. And the bag. Simple n nice. Baju dia pn cantik. Simple. Xde corak apa pon. Hihi.

Hijabi Girls Trailer from alexandra viets on Vimeo.

Just found out about this video. It's pretty cool. Never knew there IS such a film.

So the truth is, women are like precious gems. Yes we are! hihi...

If you have something so precious and so incredibly expensive and so impossibly rare, would you leave it out in the open?

OF COURSE NOT! You would keep it safe in a locked box, maybe even in a bullet proof safety vault!

If you were to show it off pun, you would surely protect it with the highest possible level of protection, siap ada laser-laser lg kat tepi2 dia, dgn pakcik guard duduk sebelah pegang senapang. Kan?!

That's how we women ARE! GOD asked us to cover to protect us. Because we are special. *Ehem* It was never an act of oppression, like what you see on International TV.

So long as we understand the fact that whatever it is that God ask us to do is for our own good, we're good.

Like images of Virgin Mary, Mother Teresa, and many other pious women all over the world. There must be a reason why they cover, right? And they're definitely not oppressed.
^_^

Halololohhhh Omel Omel nyer dierrr...meghelip tawww.

I constantly have to remind myself of this. Because we are all learning, every second of the day. For we are merely human. We make mistakes, we rebel, we forget. But there's always chance to improve. ALWAYS.

BEFORE the day we breath our last breath. BEFORE the world crumbles into teeny-tiny pieces and dissappear entirely until all that is left is God alone. The one and only Allah. And only after that, we will be brought back to life, and suffer the consequences. *shivers*

Muka innocent je. Hugs!

It's NEVER easy to be a good person. To be a good servant of God.

So don't judge, until you've walked a mile in their shoes. Let Allah judge us. What's in our innermost hearts.

May Allah keep me grounded, shelter me with love and kind reminders, protect me from my own worst enemy ~ myself.

So yeah.

Muslim women are not oppressed. Quite the contrary, we are liberated.

If you're interested, check out this fiction from Umm Zakiyyah,

If I Should Speak

And a lot more from this incredible author. One of my favourites, without a doubt.

Check it out, check, check it out y'all.

-______-"

Ok Imma shut up now.

Looking for a place to rent?

2011-04-07T10:08:00.005+08:00

*UPDATE*

THIS VACANCY IS NO LONGER AVAILABLE.

THANK YOU ^_^

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Haa....Berminat x? Ada swimming pool *wink wink

If you're interested, don't be shy, just drop by my friend's blog to check out more info.

.......................*slow classical music playing in the background*.....................

This was my home more than a year ago. Owh how much i miss it.

The cooking disasters, the open houses, the birthday surprises, the sleepovers, the midnight chats....Not to mention the tears and the guilt in between.

The truth is, I grew up so much in that very house.

The space is big. Bigger than most apartments we see these days. Make an appointment and come over to see for yourself. And the company? If you're a bit 'OFF' like us, you're gonna love them =p.

Excelsa di hatiku. FOREVER. ^_^

Selamat Pengapit Baru.

2011-03-23T10:00:00.005+08:00

For the first time in my life, I was a bridesmaid. Tp rasanya salah la... Pengapit, bukan bridesmaid. I don't think their roles are remotely the same at all, kan?

Ok. So it was my first experience being a pengapit. Been a flowergirl one too many times tho T_T. Memang bidan terjun giler. PENGAPIT TERJUN, to be exact.

It was my cousin's wedding. Supposedly, age wise, on my father's side, I was next on the line to get married. For girls, anyway. As for my mother's side, I was the first in line since the day I was born T___T. So it was like quite a pressure being at the wedding..even more so when you're chosen to be the pengapit. Tapi i cool.

But that's a different story.

The wedding was in Miri. I live in Bintulu. Bintulu-Miri is like a two-hour-drive, plus plus. The thing is, I brought only ONE pair of baju kurung. I thought the kenduri was like a one day event, nikah terus bersanding pastu habis. Boy, was i wrong. DAHLA BAWAK SEPASANG JE, JADI PENGAPIT PULAK TU!!

MAKANYA, saat pengantin mau dinikahin, i ended up wearing

THIS.

So there I was, staying close to the bride. Holding on to her bouquet of flowers, while looking SO OUT OF PLACE. Malewww dowh.

Kau duduk dendiam situ. Degil eh..

Pengapit Rugged. Buang tebiat.

With 1/6 of my cousins. I have a lot more.

Yang paling tua jgk buat perangai tak senonoh tak pakai baju kurung.

My cousin Emma and her husband.

The next day. Hari persandingan. Kebetulan pulak baju yg i bwk sama kaler ngan pengantin. Purple jugak. Tapi pengapit lelaki takde baju purple, dia pakai baju melayu putih. Bolelaa...

Ok. Much better. Tapi mcm nenek2 pulak.

Sebenarnya blur-blur jadi pengapit ni. Kengkadang tak sure nak buat apa. Lap-lap peluh kt muka pengantin, lap-lap tangan n dahi masa tepung tawar, betulkan veil, angkat ekor baju. Ikut pengantin ke hulu ke hilir. Basically tu je la...hahah! Amateur.

With more of my cousins.

EH, I also helped the bride tukar-tukar baju, tukar-tukar jewelleries. Pastu kan, masa tu dia bukak rantai emas dia dan disebabkan tgh kalut nk cepat, tak tau nak simpan kat mana, she asked me to wear it around my neck for a while. So i did. And I wore all the way back to Bintulu. Ngahahah! Dah smpi rumah baru perasan.

Beware. Pengapit Pencopet. Sila jangan ambil khidmat dia untuk jadi pengapit anda.

Pictures courtesy of saudara-mara, pakcik dan makcik yang upload kat facebook. Sekian, terima kasih.

Check out who's in the news!!

2011-02-22T11:51:00.027+08:00

Mode: Lupa Daratan.

Had the oppotunity to attend an appreciation dinner for the local press last weekend. Definitely a first for me. It was fun. We told jokes, shared experiences, and after a few flown beef and prawns galore, we were laughing like a bunch of hyenas on the loose. LAWL.

The best part is...cekidauddddddd.

Utusan Borneo 21/02/2011

Not sure which paper this one is,

Sin Chew Daily, 21/02/2011

My face was plastered on 7 newspapers that day. Malay, Chinese, English and Iban papers all lah..

WhO dA MaN!!?? I'm dA MaN!!

Ok. Imma shaddap now. Bye.

I won!

2011-02-17T21:59:00.004+08:00

Wanna know what i've won?

I won a RM150 voucher for Ajmal Perfumes!! *cue applause*

I came across this giveaway here. Memula sesaja je join contest ni sbb cam xramai yg join. Sekali menang pulak eh eh.

Here was my winning entry LOL bongkak T_T.

Actually i stumbled upon her blog sometime around last year while i was doing some blog hopping.
She's got lots of nice pictures and she's one of those lucky ones who always get free tickets and vouchers and stuff like that. So yeah..

tak sabar nk turun kl redeem voucher hohoh.

Patah sayap bertongkat dagu

2011-02-10T11:55:00.021+08:00

Jentayuuuuuu.....
I must admit, this post is loooooong overdue. Almost 3 weeks i think. Dh berkulat kot. I've been busy(konon).

But still, just to stay on track..here's a tribute.

Remember my post a few months back?

The thing is, she left. Kiki ~~Lala~~ has left the building!

Not because I was mean to her (I hope not)...but because she got a better offer, working with the government. Sob sob...

So now I'm back to square one.

As if her leaving wasn't depressing enough for me, she went on and left me messages here and there.

In the drawer,

In between the pages of the log books.

In the filing cabinet. (this one's a long one)

Benci.

Dah tau orang sensitif tahap mintak simpati, saje je wat benda-benda tak berpatutan sebegitu rupa. Tak memasal air mata bergenang keseorangan di pagi syawal. Cis. ;-(

Oh well, what i was trying to say was, thank you.

You have helped me a lot through those 2 months.

I would be drowning in my own workload if you didnt come and take me to the shore. Seriously.

Thank you for putting up with my crap, my rubbish, my nonsense.
Thank you for all the gossips, the stories and the secrets.
Makseh layan kmk membebel/merepak n makseh slalu membebel/merepak ngan kmk. MUAHAHAH!

Thank you, my friend ^_^

*Syiqin, terharu sik? touching kan? Over jak hoo...maka rumah dekat jak =p*

Saje je

2010-12-31T23:31:00.004+08:00

Aci x kalu i buat entry ni semata-mata sbb hari ni last day 2010?

Mmg entry ni jenis tangkap muat (tu pn kalau muat) pny la.

Eh ok2. I'll try to make this post worth writing/reading.

Hmm, I just got back from a 10-day holiday last week. From 16th to 26th December.

We went to:

SINGAPORE

Universal Studios Singapore. Let me remind u NOT to go there on school holidays. You'll suffocate and end up queueing and queueing until u can't queue no more. We only went on 2 rides. And each ride took us 2 hours on average just WAITING IN LINE. But we had a great lunch, we had fun going into many different souvenir shops, taking pictures and stuff. Nothing much compared to Movie World though.
Rumah Nyai (Nya ii) and Yai (Ya ii). Wah suddenly so Jawa. Nyai = nenek and Yai = atok. My mom was born in Singapore so my Nyai and Yai are her Aunt and Uncle who still lives there because they're Singaporean. But my Mom's Nyai and Yai are Indonesians. Apakah?? *tetiba sedih Indon kalah AFF Suzuki bagi pihak*. So basically Nyai and Yai are my Great Aunt and Great Uncle. My real Nyai is my Nenek. I don't call her Nyai cause she's not Javanese. She's Johorean Malay. But she's now in Jakarta for a trip. Apakah?? And my real Yai is neither in Malaysia NOR Singapore. He's in the Philippines. Whom I've never met before in my whole life. *Okay now I'm all confused*
Jalan-jalan shopping complex Singapore yg canggih manggih. They even had underground malls weeee!!
Went on a Night Tour with some other tourists. -A couple form Germany, A couple from Australia, Mother and daughter from Indonesia, and the 5 of us. And the FUNNIEST thing is, the tour guide brought us to the ROYAL SELANGOR. LOL. Macam orang Sarawak melancong pg KL pastu beli kek lapis Deja Moss T_T.

JOHOR

Tinggal rumah Nenek (this is the one that we don't call Nyai coz she's not Javanese hahah) for a few days.
All of us (except nenek sbb ada meeting katanya) went for a movie outing beramai-ramai bersama Usu, Pak Usu dan sepupu sepapat. We watched *inhales* HANTUKAKLIMAHBALIKRUMAH. Bahahahah. Bahahah. Hahah.
Rent a car and drove to.....

Stayed at Berjaya apartments.
On Christmas Eve, walked to Bintang Walk and was damn shocked with everything. KL mcm.. Hish xtau nk ckp apa. Malu.
Jatuh gedebukk depan Low Yat and hurt my knee (msh lebam and scratched).
Xsmpat nk singgah Excelsa yg dirindui. =(

Okla..dh nk kol 12 dh ni. Kang xjd post terakhir, jd post terawal. =_="

Happy New Year! May this year be better than the last. All the best to you!!!

A 'big' deal for a 'little' me

2010-12-03T22:08:00.008+08:00

Hi there!! How's everything? Good at least, I hope =).

Well for me, it's been exceptional.
I'm still in Penang, btw. I'm in my hotel room waiting for myself to be ready to go out for some Nasi Kandar action!! heheh..

First off, I sat for an exam today. After hanging on for dear life through the 4-day course, it's time to show what we're worth =). Wasn't expecting the exam to be that big a deal until we've actually been given the question papers. The questions were sealed i-tell-you...and opened in front of our eyes just like all the other formal exams. fuyyoh terus nebes. dub dab dub dab.

International Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related Health Related Problems, 10th Revision (ICD-10) Certification Coder Level 1 kicked off.

40 questions to answer in 2 hours.

Basically we have 40 diagnoses to code in 2 hours. Berpoloh-poloh.

We can use anything on the face of the earth to help us do the coding. Except to text or call someone and ask for the code la kan -_-". And of course, our best buddies,

..::Tiga Sekawan::..

It's because the purpose of this whole thing is not the means of HOW u get the code, but getting the CORRECT code for any given diagnoses. But of course you have to know HOW la kan, utk dpt code yg betol.

Betol Betol Betol!!

Here's how it works. All 29 of us will sit for the certification coder Level 1. After that, we'll go and eat our bfast outside the exam room. They'll check our answers straight away, print out the results and paste the results for everyone to see. Only the selected names (hi-lighted, in this case) will sit for the next level.

In order to get to Level 2, you have to get at least 36 over 40. In other words, tidak boleh salah lebih daripada 4.

The same goes for Level 2. You also need to get at least 36/40. Only 4 wrongs are allowed to continue.

We were told that so far in Malaysia, only ONE person who actually passed Level 2. Only ONE. Tringin nak jumpa orang tu mintak otograf.

When we sat for the exam this morning, turned out there were a few orang gomen yg dtg semata2 nk exam. Kira otai la dlm bab2 coding-mengoding ni. Mesti dh boring pg kursus. Masuk exam terus senang.

Siyes masa kursus ni, 4 hari dok keje cari code sampai temuntah-muntah!! *tipu*

Lepas habis berhempas-pulas berpeluh-peluh dlm blk aircond jwb soklan Level 1, makan bfast pun tak lalu. *tipu*

Lepas makan, lepak2 borak2 smbl nebes tunggu result. Masa dia tampal result, semua org serbu tgk. So i pi la masuk dalam amik beg dulu sbb nnt dah malu nak amik beg dan keluar membawa diri huhuhu....

Masa amik beg, dengar la sorang cikgu(speaker) ckp kat sapa ntah.

Ada 2 orang je lepas. At least ada jgk sorang wakil private.

Dlm hati ku berbisik,

Hokk alohhh. 2 org je? Hmmpphh.. nk lunch lama lg pulak nk tunggu...

So i went out and start to look for Su, my friend kt kursus ni yg duduk seblah i hari2 =)

Masa tgh cari Su di tgh2 ribuan (tipu) org yg tgh tgk result, si Dayana menyapa.

La, buat pe amik beg?? U lepas la!!

Apa pulak....

Iye, cuba tgk tu!

Dua org je la...

La...pi tgk cepat. (siap tarik tangan bagai)

DUB DAB DUB DAB.

Lambat sikit nk nmpk sbb rabun n ramai org.

Datang pulak sorang lagi.

Tahniah2! Haaa.....beriya je nebes tadi. Tu pegi Gurney Plaza mlm td, kalau tak pegi, dok blk study dpt 100% *menipu je dia ni hahah*

Masih tak percaya sbb this sort of thing doesn't happen to someone like me ok. But it did. Because Allah made it possible. Alhamdulillah..My score was 92.5.

A few more congratulations, and people began to disperse. Malu gilewwww. Telinga panas. Muka merah *tipu*. Jantong dubdab. Tangan menggigil.

Mengendaaaappppp je kat luar pintu sbb malew nk masuk. Only when they started calling my name baru tercendawan-cendawan nk masuk.

The 2 of us sat next to each other. Tapi jauh2 la. Meja panjang. Rupanya yg sorang lg tu geng speaker2 rupanya. Terus rasa kerdil. Dia ada geng, I xde geng. Tak aci pun?

We were informed that we will receive a certificate for passing Level 1 Yeehaw!!

Level 2 starts.

GILA PENING!! DUA JAM MANA CUKUP!!

Tapi I was distracted the first few minutes sbb sengih sensorang. Maklomla i xbiasa dlm situasi mcm ni. Skolah dulu kureng. Matric pn kureng. Universiti pn kureng. So maafla kalau akak teruja terlebih.

Culture shock, katanya.

Masa jwb exam asyik la tegaru-garu kepala. Ingatkan kalau garu bole dapat ilham.

Stress. Tiba-tiba dah habis 2jam. I left out 6 questions. Tak sempat doh. SAH-SAH LA TAK LEPAS.

Turun bawah makan lunch sensorang. The speakers pn turun and cakap I dpt 47.5%, Akak sorang lg dpt 50%.

Allah bagi dugaan after dugaan, semua ada hikmahnya. What happened to me was a perfect example of God's undeniable mysteries. Alhamdulillah syukur. Let it be a lesson and a reminder for us all =)

As stated in my fb status,

The event itself was a blessing on it's own, and suddenly I'm blessed with even more blessings. Am so very humbled and thankful..

I was referring to this event. God shows His love in the most unexpected ways. We just have to know where to look.

Neena jadi ibu selama 4 jam sahaja.

2010-11-29T22:14:00.055+08:00

Ok. Time to talk about yesterday's larger than life experience. I took a maswings flight from BTU to KCH at 1235hrs. Touched down, grab my luggage and berlari-lari anak terhuyung-hayang sambil menyandang beg yg sangat berat. Rushed to the AirAsia check in counter to check in for Penang. And surprise, surprise....excess luggage, RM40 terbang melayang di tengah padang. So I went to the other counter to pay and waited in line.

The culprit that made dents on my shoulders. And made me pay RM40.

Here's where it all began. As i waited, someone tapped on my shoulder yg sdg menaggung beban backpack berat, and asked.

Nak balik penang ke?

Mmm...ha'ah. Penang check-in blah sana.

Eh tak, ni akak balik Penang kaa...

Ha'ah.

Aaa...tak, sebenaqnya, sy nk mintak tolong....Tolong pegang anak sy ni. Bawak naik flight.

She was holding a newborn in her arms.

I panicked. What does she mean? Wat muka blur jap.

Bole tak akak tolong dukung dia dalam flight, nnt sy bayar tambang dia.

HAH?? tak paham? Abih dia nk pi mana?

Someone came and said something to her and someone else said to me.

Dia ada masalah keluarga. Suami dia xjd blk. Patutnya suami dia blk skali bole dukung anak dia. Dia ada sorang lg anak kecik umur setahun lebih. Xde org nk pegang baby.

Immediately I let out a sigh of relief and said

Oooo....boleh boleh boleh. Xde masalah. =)

Sebenarnya dah excited tak hingat sbb bole pgg baby lama2 for once hihi =p

So the girl, which i found out later is 23yrs old, came back to me and said

Boleh tak kak? Saya kena bwk anak sy lagi sorang. Akak tolong letak dia ni atas riba nnt.

Bolehhh...=) Brapa umur dia? Dh sebulan blom?

33 hari.

Oooo...baru nyer lagi......

Ha'a. Terpaksa blk. Tp ayah dia pulak xjd blk. Kalu tak, ayah dia yg pegang. Tapi dia cancel last minute.

Me, registered with an infant hahah!!

And then I helped carry the baby as she went to help the other woman, who turned out to be her sister in-law, to check in and stuff. A few minutes holding the baby, people around me started giving me double takes and one woman actually asked me how old the baby was. I answered and she asked whether I was still in confinement. BAHAHAH!!!! I had to explain that I'm not the baby's mother huhuhu.

But from that moment on, I became the baby's mommy hahah!! She was in my arms from before check in, masa scan barang, masa check pasport/ic, masa jalan pg Gate 1, masa queue nk boarding.

Masa nk scan barang tu, pakcik polis tolong bukakkan back pack. And sandangkan blk backpack. Merasa perasaan ibu2 yg ada anak kecik. Hihihihi.

Tp yg plg siksa sbb back pack bapak berat. And I was also carrying the mom's handheld bag (quite heavy too hihi) anddd my sling bag. With the baby in my arms. Kesian baby... I have to juggle her while I was switching and adjusting the bags hanging all over my body. She was restless. Kesian giler.

And finally, after a painstakingly long queue to board the plane, at last we're in. And guess what. The mom's seat was at 9E, and mine was 28F. What-am-i-gonna-do!! Terpaksa pg jugak sbb ada ramai org kat blakang. Smpt mintak susu baby je. Lupa nk mintak pampers eh diapers.

Benci gila dpt seat belakang. I have this thing about sitting at the back of airplanes. Kemungkinan untuk get sick and muntah adalah agak tinggi. Risau giler. Harap-harap baby behave. Neena tolong jgn muntah atas baby T_T.

Well she didn't. She sleeps and wakes up crying every 5minutes. NOT KIDDING. Nasib baik dpt tdokan blk everytime. Tp dia mmg akan bangun byk kali jgk. It's the air pressure. Dia tak selesa. Skt telinga kot. KESIAN. I kept staaaring at her masa dia tido. She has eyebags under her eyes. I can feel that she's stressed. Sedih tgk dia. Poor poor baby. Masa tu dh loya2. Baru tingat xmkn lagi. Dh kol 3.45. Perut ada roti canai pg td je. Seb baik ada sandwich from my previous maswings flight. Terus amik sandwich sumbat dlm mulut cepat2.

Suddenly i felt it. Prroooooooooottttttttt.. Baby berak hahaha...Muka dia dh merah menangis mintak tukar pampers. I quickly panggil steward yg lalu.

Excuse me, bole tolong tak. Mintak pampers kat pompuan yg dok kat seat 9E? Baby berak hihi... Thank you.

Pastu the mom pn datang to the rescue. So me, the mom, baby and big sister semua masuk lavatory. Nsb baik xsmpt nk claustrophobic ms tu. The mom changed baby's diapers, and terus nurse the baby while i layan big sister. Gila aktif budak tu. Uuiihhh...nk bukak pintu, nk cuci tgn, nk dukung, nk masuk tgn dlm toilet bowl, nk bukak kasut, nk pasang kasut.

Lps tu, thankfully, ada seat kosong kat depan, so we can all sit in one row. Baby sambung nursing lagi. Mmg kuat menyusu, patutla merengek. Masa duduk sama tu, she told me more about herself and her family. I pity her. Listening to her made me thankful. All the while, si kakak ni xbole duduk diam pulak. I had to put my leg across the side to stop her from getting to the isle.Dok turun naik kerusi, suh bukak kasut, pakaikan kasut lg haha, Koyak2 menu and pamphlet, tarik rambut baby...fuyoh. Nk kena babab ni. Nasib baik anak org ngehngeh. Mmg penyabar la mak dia. Dgn baby yg tak habis2 lagi menyusu badan dari kuar toilet td. 10 minutes before landing baru I pegang blk baby I ngehehe while she takes care of big sister.

Dh sampai. Masih terkial-kial jalan bawak baby dgn tiga beg keliling pinggang. Rasa mcm christmas tree pn ada. Byk ornaments. Dh terel giler pgg baby sebelah tgn. Mmg prektis takhingat laa....=p Siap bole ambik angkat bagasi lg smbl memegang baby. Tetiba sebak rasa mcm ibu tunggal =(.

Lps tu, ingatkan dh nk berlalu pg amik taxi blk hotel. Tp org yg amik mereka2 ni xsmpi lg. Baby pulak meragam. Si kakak spt biasa berlari ke sana ke mari tanpa henti. TANPA HENTI. Sian mak dia xhabis pantang lg dok kejar dia, dukung dia. Hadoiiihh...sedih.

So I stayed for almost an hour with them, juggling the 2 kids. Tuka2 shift dgn the mom. Ya Allah. Baru 2 org, dh rasa mcm nk pengsan. Baru jaga kejap. Mcm mana ni? Can I be a good mom? Tetiba bermonolog sendirian. Risau dgn masa dpn anak sendiri nnt wakaka!! Mampukah aku??

So that was my day yesterday. After they went, I purchased a taxi ticket and bought a MILO McFlurry. TAKBOLEHTAHAN! Sedap giler dowh. Lg sdp dr cornetto and oreo. ^.^ And I smiled a tired smile all the way to the hotel.

Panjang la pulak citer. Can't wait to read this again a few years from now. Kenangan beb.

Like in the movies

2010-11-27T23:15:00.005+08:00

Today, i had my very first experience with a shrink. Whoa. Doesn't matter how i ended up seeing a shrink, just don't start getting any ideas that i'm going psycho or something. LOL. Even if i am, it's nothing new for me...lmao.

So i felt like i was some character in a movie. Minus lying down on a couch, that is, =_=". It was...hmmm more or less like i've always imagined. Somewhat overwhelming, to say the least. But it was quite an interesting experience. It's nice having someone listen to you for a change. Cause I prefer to see myself as a listener, instead of the one being listened to.
Would i do it again? Maybe not anytime soon =p.

The tough gets going

2010-11-25T22:35:00.004+08:00

Hi! What's up people!!

Hope November has been treating u well.

Can't wait for PENANG this weekend. Will be attending the ICD Coding course for

FIVE DAYS STRAIGHT!!

FROM EIGHT TO FIVE EVERYDAY!!

Hoping it will be a fun trip. A chance to unwind...kan kan kan???!!!

Uuuuu since we're talkin about work, I have an assistant now yayy!! (bajet mcm bos besar je ada assistant bagai. Harap jgn terpedaya)

I don't run a one-man-show anymore yayyyy!! Thank God for Syiqin =). Now that I have her, I no longer feel suffocated and helpless. Getting ready for work is not that much of a drag anymore. My work has become a lot more organized already! After only 4 days! Hoping it will stay that way woohooo!!

Sikit lagi nk merasa berenang dlm lautan kertas yg melimpah ruah. Kesian pokok.

Now I don't have to worry my crazy little head off, whenever i'm on leave or when i have to go on courses like the one I'm going to next week. That's a big-ass burden being lifted off my already hunched shoulders.

SEMBAB

2010-11-19T08:50:00.002+08:00

pernah tak anda menangis sampai lebam? sampai demam? kalau xpernah boleh cuba.

prolly one of the hardest to publish

2010-11-15T22:00:00.001+08:00

They say you'll never know if you don't try. There's no harm trying. Well darlin',

It's easier said than done.
I'm talking about relationships bytheway..

Don't get me wrong here, I love watching happy people being happy.

But with happiness comes sacrifices. You have to give something to get something back in return. But not everyone is strong enough to understand and say out loud that in the end, all of it will be worth the risk.

That is one of the reasons why i've always lived like this. I prefer to
keep a comfortable distance.
I can't remember when did I put up this invisible wall around me. Guess you can say that I'm sorta content with loneliness that I don't feel too much of it anymore. I'm so used to it that it doesn't bother me anymore. Maybe once in a while, but not so much. The secret? God, family and friends.

Does any of these sound familiar?

Now I just have to find my only exception. Maybe I have, maybe I haven't. I really don't have a clue. I leave it all in the hands of The Almighty. He knows me more than I know myself.

I feel like summing it all up this way. Instead of just asking "Do you love me?", maybe we should add "Do you think I'm gonna be worth the risk?" for good measure. What do you think?

I know i sound paranoid. Hahah!! Just one of the weird issues i have with myself. Me and my insecurities T____T. Still trying to get over it. I'm sure I will. Someday, InsyaAllah.

"And I'm on my way to believing". Help me believe.

Ibarat kain putih

2010-10-30T23:51:00.002+08:00

Haa...amik kau. Dh rajin sgt pulak dh update hari2. Takpe. Saya yakin ini hanya sementara. Biasalah, emosi wanita(wanita!!) ni bukan boleh harap sgt.

Ikut suka dia je.

Kanak-kanak ibarat kain putih.

Kain putih pakai kain putih

Takperlu lah baby omputeh. Ok, baby comel di negara orang, lebih baik baby sendiri.
*AIK?!?

Skang, siapa berani cakap budak kat bawah ni tak comel mmg nk kena lempang lajulaju. Cakap la cakap. Cuba la kalu berani!! Meh cni meh!!

Nnt jap sy carik org lain tolong lempangkan.

Adlynn Eryna

http://adlynneryna.blogspot.com/

Yang ni pulak mmg sedia maklum la...

Mia Sara Nasuha

Asal sumer budak spesis rambut cendawan ni sumer comel2?

Dorang makan apa ek smpi comel begini?

Patutla.

The question is, adakah budak berambut cendawan butang je yg comel? Tak semestinya....ni pon comel jgk. Budak cina jawa celup ni. =p

Cakk!!

Ayden Zhichuen Rashid

And of course. Budak yg menghiasi wallpaper hp sy dari October 2009 smpi hari ini. (Nnt dh jd kacang lupakan kulit, mulala letak gamba lain pulak, biasala ~~wanita~~ manusia)

alololoooo...syg mia!

Damia Zahirah

Last but not least. Ini pon comey jua.

Kesian kena buli bunga bunga

Novel melayu tangkap leleh

2010-10-29T12:02:00.005+08:00

Ini entri Bahasa Melayu sepenuhnya.

Memandangkan sy baru sahaja selesai membaca novel terbaru karya (karya!) Siti Rosmizah yg bertajuk ni ha...

Memandangkan sudah bertahun-tahun sy tidak membaca novel berbahasa melayu, agak teruja apabila mendapati novel ini memenuhi toko buku popular sehingga tidak cukup rak. Setelah menganalisa di dunia internet tentang novel ini, maka saya pun tertarik untuk membelinya. Kerana saya memang cukup meminati buku/novel/drama/filem/iklan yg tangkap nangis@tangkap hingus.

Memandangkan saya dah menangis berbesen-besen air mata dan air hidung, sy suka buku ini. Dalam pada itu, saya juga turut gelak sorang-sorang sambil ketuk2 dahi dgn novel.

Memandangkan saya dh lama tak berkecimpung dalam bidang novel melayu ni, saya mengalami kesukaran untuk menghadapi kenyataan hidup dunia realiti sebaik sahaja selesai menghabiskan 810 mukasurat novel tersebut.

Ini dari sistem pesanan ringkas yg saya hantar kepada rakan baik saya bernama fiza sebagai bukti.

U, i bgn td kan, rs sebak sbb i dh anggap diorg mcm keluarga i sendiri. Asal i pndg je buku tu, rs cm i dh tgglkn sbhgian dr kisah hidup i. Knp i rs mcm ni fz? Kenapa!?

Di mana dia membalas dengan

Gilakk u ni. Mula2 bc msg u, igt sapa la kluarga u tu. Benda ni take time skit. Sbb bnd u wat hr2, mst ada krinduan. cewah ayt xblh blah. nnt 2,3 hr ok la tu..

HAHAH!!!! Tapi serius ntah apa2. Nasib baik sudah pulih seperti sedia kala. Poyo lah neena.

Drama Melayu

2010-10-28T23:00:00.006+08:00

Meh-meh cni nk update. Tadi baru lps meeting gempak gilos dr tgh hari sampai kol 5 kt hotel New World Suites. Meeting ni dgn CEO dtg dr kl tu haa..so hagaklaaa kan. Memula lunch kt restaurant hotel. Masa tu mmg makan tak ingat dunia smpi tambah nasi 2 kali. Jakun kah dpt mkn free? Lps mkn pi naik tingkat 10, masuk meeting room. Fuyoh dasat dh rasa mcm drama melayu, meeting dgn share holder syarikat kepunyaan ayah yg merupakan seorang Dato'.

Tgh syok2 berbincang dan mengangguk buat2 paham, tea break la pulak. Byk pulak tu makanan tea break mcm lunch kali ke2. Muntakedarah lg. Lps mkn mihun+ayam+popia+desert, sambung blk. And then came my turn to present my report from my dprtmnt. Ntah kenapa dah tak nebes sgt. Kali ni pipi tak menggigil mcm selalu. Slide nyer ada 7 je so.......ting-tang-ting-tang-alexander.......dh siap present. And the CEO commented, "I like your slides". Which i modestly replied, "Thank you...heheh" pastu wajib sengeh mcm kerang ni.

Pastu dh nk blk kan, i smpt grab satu popiah. And masa tgh menyumbat popiah dlm mulut, ada la pulak CEO kt tepi tu and he smiled and said, again, "I like your slides". Masa tu dh musykil, eh mamat ni sindir aku ke? Because my slides were yg plg terburuk skali dgn background putih, dan bar chart dan pie chart sematamata. Walhal org lain pny gempak-baikpunyer-palingcun-wow ada tulisan pusing2, kaler oren, warna-warni, siap ada map negeri sarawak gituh. And i just did my slides this morning. Mmg last minute giler. Xpela. Redho.

Saja je nk kaburkan mata korang dgn cerita merapu ni, ~~padahal nk bgtau org puji slide presentation dia cheh!~~ Ok2. Sebenarnya...as tomorrow is the 29th of October, saya nk wish HAPPY BIRTHDAY to a very good friend of mine, CIK JEHAN BAHRI a.k.a AJIE CHEM!!! Semoga perjalanan hidup u sentiasa dipermudahkan, semoga mendapat rezeki yg melimpah ruah, semoga cpt naik pelamin winkwink dan semoga diberkati oleh Allah selalu di dunia dan di akhirat. Love u lots..Muahmuah!!

Haaa.....ayok...mana satu bday girl, ayok....

I bet you can relate

2010-10-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

just to share something i stumble upon just a few minutes ago. Totally caught my interest.

True, huh..

24th to 29th Sept 2010 (part 1)

2010-09-30T23:15:00.009+08:00

This holiday was super fun. Although there are LOTS of things that I didn't get to do and LOTS of people I didn't get to meet, I feel happy and blessed to be surrounded by wonderful people. Alhamdulillah.

Sorry to my beloved friends whom i couldnt find the time to meet. Bad time management on my side. Sorry to the D108s in KL(ct and nana), nana redzuan, usop, kak amy ('Setahun Sekali bersama Amy Mastura' agegegege). And maybe a few names that i've missed. Sorry xcontact n jmp korang. =(

Just so I won't forget this, years n years from now, here goes. On September 24th, at about 9.30pm, i drove from KLIA to excelsa (sewa keta kwn ayah sbb my mom and grandma will be coming on the 26th so senang nk ke mana2 n amik diorang kt epot). The minute i knocked on the door of my old house, half expecting my friends to be in their pyjamas and lounging in front of the tv or their laptops. But i didnt know any better. Somehow it took a while for the person behind the door to open the door. And I knew i heard whispers from inside the house. Masa tu dh suspect sumthing. Sekali pintu terbukak HOMAKNGKAU TEKEJUT AKU!! Obviously embarrased by the person who opened the door for me, i quickly averted my eyes to the other parts of the house and saw almost 20 pair of eyes staring back at me.

T.E.R.K.E.J.U.T + S.E.G.A.N = MENGGIGIL TAKHINGAT.

BUT, not before i heard this tiny little voice that I've missed owh-so-much that shouted,

"NEENA!".

Damia's a big girl now. Neena loves you mia.

I was overjoyed. She remembers me!! I was told that both her and her mom couldnt come to kl that weekend. But they came! Would have broken into an ugly cry if I wasn't so freakin overwhelmed and shaking uncontrollably. Over kan reaction i? Sedar diri jap. Ok.

Thank you. Terima kasih sbb wat open house sama hari dgn time i blk dan buat i perasan dan rasa mcm VIP a.k.a mak Datin. I will remember it for the rest of my life.

Hahah. Macam-macam.

emotionally drained

2010-09-19T00:57:00.003+08:00

my patience was put to the test a bit more frequently these past few weeks. ntah. a few things accumulated one after the other and i burst into tears before you can say BEJABBERS!

Cry baby yeah i know. Can't help it. Sue me. HIHIHI..

enough of the sissy stuff already.

Lately dh kembali malas nk update blog. Reason being i find it much more enjoyable reading everyone else's blog. caught myself laughing at the computer screen more often than not. Interesting lives these people have, i tell ya. Whilst mine is just plain and boring same old same old. So you tell me which one's better. I pick reading interesting blog over blogging boring blogs haha! T_T baiklah. But i do try and push this butt of mine to continue blogging simply cause i just love to read them over again few years after.

Sentimental-lass-i-am.

Ok. As i mentioned earlier. Emotionally drained. Although i'm not sure if i still am. Haha..see? kejap je kalau cengeng pon. xlama. Bye!

More stuff from Facebook

2010-09-07T09:28:00.005+08:00

Here's a wonderful article i found on facebook, shared by someone called Tengku Muhammad Kalmani As-Saif (xkenal pon sbnrnya).

PESANAN BUAT SUAMI - Oleh Dato’ Dr Hj Mohd Fadzilah Kamsah

1. Selalu menghargai usaha dan penat-lelah isteri, terutama isteri yang bekerja dan sama-sama terpaksa menanggung hutang suami.

2. Bila isteri bercakap, pandanglah mukanya dan buka telinga luas-luas. Biar apa yang dikatakannya masuk telinga kanan dan tersumbat di telinga kiri. Sambil tu otak suami kenalah memproses informasi yang diterima daripada isteri dengan bijak serta prihatin.

3. Jangan sekali-kali membandingkan masakan isteri atau cara isteri menghias rumah dengan mak anda kecuali masakan/cara menghias isteri anda lebih baik dan canggih dari emak anda..

4. Jangan demand sex sekiranya isteri tak ada mood atau letih. Agama suruh kahwin bukan semata-mata untuk penuhi nafsu syahwat saja.

5. Kalau pasangan dah ada anak, sama-samalah menjaga anak. Benih dari awak juga.. Ada suami, isteri sedang makan disuruh cebok kencing n berak anak sedangkan suami duduk tersandar kekenyangan macam maharaja.

6. Jangan sekali-kali duduk tersandar depan TV atau relax-relax sedangkan isteri bila balik dari kerja, buka saja kasut terus masuk dapur, memasak, mengemas, membasuh, kejar anak dsbnya. Berbulu mata dan sayu hati isteri bila kami tak cukup tangan nak menguruskan rumahtangga sedangkan suami lepas tangan.

7. Sekiranya suami makan dahulu, tinggalkan sedikit lauk utk isteri. Jangan bedal semua sampai turn isteri yang tinggal cuma ekor ikan sekerat, janggut sotong dan ekor taugeh.

8. Kalau nak ajak member bertandang ke rumah, beritau isteri dulu, kalau boleh sehari-dua in advance. Jadi bolehlah dia memasak yang best-best dan mengemas rumah cantik-cantik. Bayangkan perasaan isteri kalau tetamu datang terpacak sedangkan kain-baju masih berlonggok belum sempat dilipat, permainan anak masih berselerak dan isteri cuma masak mi maggi saja.

9. Jangan sekali-kali menyakat isteri tentang saiz badannya yang semakin sihat atau semakin melidi. Tengok body sendiri dalam cermin dulu.

10. Jangan kentut depan isteri. Masa bercinta dulu kenapa boleh control kentut?

11. Hormatilah ibu-bapa dan kaum keluarga isteri walaupun anda cuma main wayang, bodek mereka masa nak mengurat isteri anda dulu. Jangan sekali mencaci mereka walaupun secara bergurau.

12. Jangan kedekut dengan isteri serta keperluan rumahtangga.

13. Jagalah maruah anda sebagai suami dan lelaki. Selagi boleh, jangan bebankan isteri dengan masaalah kewangan anda. Selalunya perempuan ni, semakin suami “degil” tak nak minta pertolongan, selagi itulah dia rela nak tolong.

14. Jangan bersepah dan bersikap pengotor. Dah buka baju, letakkan dalam bakul baju kotor, dah guna cungkil gigi, buanglah dalam bakul sampah, bila dah guna ubat gigi bubuh balik penutupnya, dah ambil sesuatu barang simpan balik ditempat asal, dah berak flush. Susah sangat ke nak buat macam tu? Semua nak kena ajar ke?

15. Rajin-rajinlah bertanya isteri kalau dia perlukan bantuan anda dengan kerja rumah/menjaga anak. Tapi jangan tanya dua tahun sekali. Jangan tunjuk rajin bila ada tetamu di rumah saja.

16. Hormatilah isteri anda sebagaimana anda mahu dihormati. Isteri pun manusia. Allah berikan banyak keistimewaan kepada para isteri tapi diputar-belitkan tafsirannya oleh orang lelaki untuk kepentingan diri sendiri.

17.. Jangan main kayu tiga dengan perempuan lain. Main lain lagi tak boleh. Kalau isteri awak yang buat, tentu awak tak boleh tolerate, jadi mengapa isteri awak kena tolerate kalau awak buat?

18. Kalau tak menyukai sikap atau perbuatan isteri, tegurlah secara baik, jangan asyik nak menengking aja. Kalau awak sakit nak mati nanti, siapa yang kena jaga awak? Bai jual roti? Apek jual sayur? Jiran sebelah rumah awak?

19. Kalau isteri nampak tak sihat, cepat-cepatlah bawa jumpa doktor. Tunjuklah anda mengambil berat tentang dirinya.

20. Berbincanglah dengan isteri sebelum sesuatu keputusan dibuat. Walaupun suami megah ada kuasa veto, tak jadi bapok kalau pendapat isteri diambil kira. Pokok pangkalnya ialah timbangrasa dan saling menghargai. Cubalah ketepikan ego yang keterlaluan. Bukannya laku bila dah mati nanti.

21. Dalami agama dan bimbinglah anak isteri dengan ikhlas seperti yang dituntut agama. Ingat, kalau seorang suami masuk syurga, besar kemungkinan isteri pun masuk syurga. Kalau suami masuk neraka belum tentu isteri juga masuk neraka. Kalau isteri masuk neraka, besar kemungkinan suami juga masuk NERAKA tapi kalau isteri masuk syurga belum tentu suami pun masuk syurga.Ini bukan rekaan saya tapi saya dengar dari seorang ustaz.

22. Berusahalah dengan ikhlas untuk mempertahankan keharmonian rumahtangga. Jangan buat apa yang isteri tak suka. Percayalah, kalau suami buat baik sekali dengan isteri, isteri balas sepuluh kali

23. Jangan buat donno kalau isteri merajuk atau berkecil hati. Kalau perlu minta maaf, minta maaf, kalau perlu dipujuk, pujuk. Hati orang pompuan ni sensitif. Kalau kami rasa suami tak ambil kisah, perasaan bagai dihiris-hiris. Perkara yang dipandang remeh oleh suami boleh menjadi kanser kepada isteri. Kepada para suami khususnya dan kaum lelaki amnya, janganlah dianggap masalah hati dan perasaan orang perempuan ni enteng sahaja.

Allah s.w.t. berfirman, “Dan ketahuilah bahawasanya Allah mengetahui apa yang didalam hatimu, sebab itu berhati-hatilah dengan Tuhan”

This article understands wives like never before....(^_^)
Semoga menjadi pedoman dan pengajaran buat suami2 dan bakal2 suami.
Dan mungkin juga sebagai pengetahuan dan muhasabah diri buat isteri2 dan bakal2 isteri. InsyaAllah...

This post is dedicated to zaza

2010-08-26T11:36:00.020+08:00

Hi zaza! Sorry it took me quite some time to prepare this for you. Ok here goes.

CARA-CARA MEMBUAT BUBUR PEDAS SARAWAK TANAH AIRKU

Before i start, let me warn u that i'm no good with estimation. (even in math T_T)

So semua ingredient kena budget-budget sendiri lah ye. Ikut citarasa masing-masing kununnyer. Ampunkan makcik..

Bahan-bahan A

- Bawang besar bawang putih

- Cili/cabai/cabik

(ada orang tumbuk, kitorang potong2 je nmpk menarik sket =p)

Bahan-Bahan B

- Daging (dipotong/dihiris)

- Udang (kalu besar sgt potong je)

- Kentang (potong kiub)

Bahan-Bahan C

- Tauhu Kering (gunting pendek-pendek, rendam dulu)

- Sayur kacang (potong pendek-pendek)

- Kulat hitam (rendam dulu)

- Baby jagung (potong2)

- Santan

- Su'un (rendam dulu)

cendawan/kulat hitam kering

Cara-cara membuatnya

- Mula-mula, tumis Bahan-Bahan A

- Sambil tu, serbuk/bumbu bubur pedas kita larutkan dlm air ye.

- Agak-agak bau dh naik, masukkan Bahan-Bahan B

- Kacau-kacau sikit smpi empuk(wah, empuk!), dah boleh masuk perencah/serbuk/bumbu dgn air-air tu sumer.

- Dah mendidih sikit tu, masuk Bahan-Bahan C

- Kalu nk menarik n sedap sikit, masukkan hirisan pucuk buas

- Kalu pekat sgt bolela tambah air sikit-sikit tp jgn smpi cair sgt pulok

- Bubuh garam jangan lupa...

Ok. Selamat mencuba!

contoh bubur pedas xcukup bahan and xcukup lighting

bubur pedas dari google =)

Okay okay...this shall be my last video for this month.

2010-08-24T20:31:00.005+08:00

Hahah!! Yeah i know i've been posting up video after video lately. Can't help it. Promise this will be my last. For this month, at least ^_^

Ok. I just HAVE to share this song with you. It's definitely my favourite track from Maher Zain. It keeps tugging at my heart strings everytime i listen to it. Keeps me reminded that I'm never alone. Allah will always be there for me. No matter how SHITTY I may be.
InsyaAllah..

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost and

That you're so alone

All you is see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless

You can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never loose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake

You feel you can’t repent

And that it's way too late

You’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah

He’s never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

OOO Ya Allah

Guide my steps don’t let me go astray

You’re the only one that showed me the way,

Showed me the way x2

Insyaallah x3

Insya Allah we’ll find the way

I do believe he's delusional, don't you?

2010-08-23T21:28:00.004+08:00

For the love of GOD, what da?? So full of hatred for such an old man.

Just DON'T START, grandpa. You have absolutely no idea what you're getting yourself into. You can insult muslims all you want, for all i care. For we are merely human beings. But NEVER insult ISLAM.

With all due respect, that's just plain ignorant. Research all the way through before you start saying anything harsh and hurtful. What are we teaching the kids? Saja je menguji kesabaran di bulan Ramadhan, tau. Peace, people. Peace. Love for all..muslims AND non-muslims. No haters, ok?

One of God's gifts

2010-08-21T07:12:00.009+08:00

I came across this amazingly beautiful recitations of the Quran that's been going around on Facebook these few days. I was blown away. You will be too. Trust me. Listen..

Breathtaking isn't it? MashaAllah..His name is Mohammed Taha Al Junayd. That was him leading a prayer. This young lad has quite the good looks too, i must say =p

Here's some more.

Eh eh!! Jangan lupa tonton Kalamullah @TV3 bersama Ustazah Asni Mansor dgn Qari dan Qariah kecil yang comel lotey yang mengaji dgn taranum yg sedap dan mendayu-dayu dan comel sekali sampai terharu. *bukak mata besar-besar*
....contohnya Adik Ammar wink wink. Sampai menangis Ustazah dibuatnya. (cheh, dibuatnya bagai)

Have a blessed Ramadhan my friends.

Ramadhan so far?

2010-08-18T07:48:00.009+08:00

So how's Ramadhan so far? We are all praying for the best for ourselves, our family, our friends, our fellow muslims and everyone all across the globe. That's for sure. May Allah bless us all and give us the strength to face His challenges. InsyaAllah.

On a lighter note, can't wait for September. That's when my sister will be back for the holidays and that will be the time when I will fly back to KL to meet everybody!! InsyaAllah...(tiket pon blom beli. Nk kena babap nih!)

Been watching reruns of Nur Kasih every morning at 5..dh brp kali ulang, still sengih sorang2 kalu tgk. Haisshhh.. Cubala concentrate beribadat di pagi Ramadhan yg hening, baru la berbaloi-baloi. Godaan tol Nur Kasih ni. Hahah!! Nak sabar mcm Aidil konon (inside joke ehem fiza)

Oklah. Before we get too excited, let's just collect all the good points and all the hidden treasures that GOD has prepared for us to find throughout this holy month, shall we??

Have a blessed month people!! *Hugs and kisses*

*Itching to delete my last post. Me no likey. Emosi terlampau melampau*

Maaf saya HIPOKRIT

2010-08-16T09:37:00.014+08:00

Sorry to burden u with such trivial, self-absorbed matter of mine. Need NOT continue reading if you have much better things to do. Just have to get a few things out of my system. In the hope that it will be a much needed therapy. God willing.

Saya sedaya upaya cuba mengingatkan diri untuk Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Or, my preferred version, One should not treat others in ways one would not like to be treated . I try to live by this saying as much as i can. Tetapi sebagai hamba Allah yg hina, saya kerap terlupa. Dan tanpa sedar, atau mungkin juga DALAM sedar, kita menyakiti hati dan perasaan orang lain. Ini saya akui sangat-sangat. Sangat. Saya menyesal. Tapi ini tidak menjamin saya tidak akan mengulanginya. Definitely not. But i'll try.

Ok. Ini cuma luahan perasaan saya. Sila abaikan.

Saya sangat2 memohon, tolong jangan mengambil kesempatan di atas kelemahan saya. Kerana saya tahu anda tahu bahawa saya tidak mampu untuk berbuat apa-apa. Saya lemah. Sekalipun bukan sebagai sahabat atau kenalan, anggaplah saya sebagai seorang manusia biasa yang punya hati dan perasaan. Sukar. Bagi saya untuk menolak. Bagi saya untuk berkata tidak. Kepada anda-anda yang dekat di hati saya. Tetapi jika saya dekat di hati anda, anda juga tahu. Dan jika saya tahu anda tahu, mungkin lebih mudah. Untuk saya, bukan menolak, tapi menyatakan yang seadanya sekiranya saya tidak mampu. Itu jika saya tahu anda tahu siapa saya. Tapi saya sedar. Saya tidak boleh menuntut orang untuk selalu memahami saya. Bukan saya seorang sahaja yang hidup di dunia.

Dengan tidak berkata tidak walaupun sebenarnya saya tidak mampu, bukan bermakna saya tidak ikhlas. Tetapi hanya Tuhan yang tahu keikhlasan kita. Saya tidak mahu mengeluh, tetapi saya sedih. Cuma sedih. Mungkin lain kisahnya jika anda seorang yang jauh dari lingkungan hidup saya. I do it because i care. Please don't take advantage of it and turn it into something that's not-so-caring any more. Because I DO care.

Sekali, seikhlasnya saya gembira kerana diberi peluang untuk menolong.
Dua kali, saya faham mungkin tidak disengajakan.
Tiga kali, mungkin terlupa, cuma manusia biasa.
Sekiranya BUDI yang kita caturkan di sini, insyaAllah saya lebih gembira kerana boleh dibawa untuk berjumpa Tuhan walaupun sedikit. Tapi di sini, saya risaukan masa depan. Apa yang berlaku sekiranya dibiar berlarutan.

Saya bukan Nabi. Saya tidak istimewa. Saya marah. Saya geram. Saya kesal. Saya pasti saya juga hipokrit kerana berjaya menutup semua itu dengan kain lutsinar dan saya berjalan bersama kain lutsinar itu setiap hari. Tapi saya bersyukur kerana sifat mudah lupa kadangkala menguntungkan saya. Mungkin esok saya akan lupa, cuma saya harap anda tidak mengingatkan saya dengan mengulanginya dan saya akan kembali membawa kain lutsinar yang sudah berapa kali cuba dibuang tetapi tetap tersimpan rapi di dalam kocek hati.

Ramai yang bencikan hipokrit. Maaf.

Arranged marriage, is it for you?

2010-07-29T13:16:00.009+08:00

So is it?

Well for me, i wouldn't mind at all (considering how hard it is for me to find err...long story) Because i strongly believe that your parents will definitely choose what or who's best for you. And of course, to have a blissful and blessed marriage(nomatter how short the period will be), blessings from your parents shall be one of the things that you will need the most.

Howeverrrrrrrrr, my biggest concern if my parents were to arrange a marriage for me will be, THE PARTNER. I would be worrying myself to death about what HE might think about me. What if he doesn't like me from the very first time he saw me? what if he couldn't even stand the sight of me? And he was pushed to marry me when he doesn't want to? Or he already has someone else tha he loves dearly? In the end i cant imagine how our marriage will be like. He will start finding someone else that he will actually love, or will he be pretending, and live in a lie all the way to the end. And those are the things that makes me shudder in fright.

So my point is, an arranged marriage is ok with me. As long as my husband-to-be and my mother-inlaw-to-be is ok with me. The truth is, arranged marriage is not for everybody. Some may flourish, and some may just wilt away and die. All in GOD's will.

You must wonder why on earth did i come up with the topic for this post. Again, long story.

Gotta get back to work. Glad to have gotten these things of my chest.
By the way, this post has nothing to do with me (although my mom DID voice it out a couple of times). My parents aren't planning to arrange my marriage. Not yet anyway. Hahaha!!! Oh my..T_T

still here

2010-07-28T00:15:00.005+08:00

Hi. I'm still here. Alhamdulillah. *sneeze* Jap nk vacuum blog jap.*sneeze*.

It's 12.17am and i'm still up. Esok keje. It's end of July. 3 hari lg dh August. How time flies. Kenapa ayat pendek2 ni? Ok tukar topik.

Work has been quite a burden lately. Dua kaki dua tangan ni kadang2 rasa xcukup. But i'm trying to keep my cool. Take things slow. You gotta do what you gotta do, right? Should always remind myself to be THANKFUL for everything. Instead of COMPLAINING about everything. Tapi bukan senang. Manusia mudah lupa. Dahla manusia, Melayu pulak tu!! tak ke 2 kali ganda lupa jadinye tuh? Patotla....

Hmm...post ni rasa lain pulak. More mature, i must say. WEIRD. Is this me? Has Bintulu changed me? *sneeze* I feel odd. Guess i need to go to sleep now. Goodnight.

Mungkin sbb blog byk habuk kot.

Warning!!! citer basi...jgn makan.

2010-03-18T10:15:00.000+08:00

note: this post was one of the drafts i wrote some time ago. and i mean a looooong time ago. Waaayyy BEFORE i move back to my hometown...on the 21st of July, 2009. yes, that old. never got around to actually publishing it until now. so it's old news ok, people. just bear with me here...=p

things i'm absolutely gonna miss:

1. The breakfast routine...

i know sumtimes we get tired of doing the same thing over and over...tapi im definitely gonna miss it so much sbb dh terbiasa. pagi2...park kat dpn lobby, turun pegi thumb in, me n jie kat lobby, zaza kena naik atas. pastu tunggu meg, kak amy to come n join the three of us for bfast. the people may change but mostly it'll be the five of us ;p. im gonna miss furqan, mtdc, maulana, bismillah, nasi kerabu bangi, nasi kerabu dpn maybank, kak midah...

2. Hanging out kat bilik diskusi

Kalu nk buat keje ataupun xde keje, this is the place to be. Most of the time..at least one of us will be there. and hanim salu ada, dok kat meja belah kiri. our port? belah kanan. ataupn mana2 port yg ada power supply..makan kat ctu, borak kt ctu...wat keje pn kat ctu.

3. Singgah sebentar menjenguk blk kak amy

ni mgg port terunggul seantero upm...huhu....byk kenangan kt cni woh...

4. The sleepovers

ramai2 mmg bedarik ye...ruang umah yg besa digunakan dgn sebaik mungkin...

5. Watching movies n tv shows

concert sume, ghost, nur kasih, spa q...

6. Badminton

men kat pusat sukan n kolej 11. salu kena warn ngan pak guard sbb masih pakai sticker zaman tok kadok

7. makan-makan n masak-masak kat umah...

8. little damia

after i accepted the offer, i'm starting to wonder, whether she's gonna remember me. i'm DEFINITELY gonna miss her damn much..

9. my messy room that most of the time, no one's allowed in just bcoz its so darn messy. haih..

10. pegi keje

the monday blues, bangun lmbt, jam xhingat kt traffic light pagi2, dengan keto Gggalo segala bagai. pastu kalu sampai, mesti cakap " Ya Allah..hari2 lmbt...bilaaaaaaaaa la nk insaf" makin hari makin lmbt

11. lunch!!

mtdc, padang, banquet hall, furqan, makan-makan

i wrote this before i came back to bintulu. and sure enough, i am missing each and everything that was listed above. And so much more...rindu....

penyakitan

2009-09-11T22:53:00.005+08:00

it's been a while, i know. i forgot to blog about the results for my second blood test. so it's confirmed. i.am.thalassemic. beta thalassemia minor, to be exact. no biggie. it's just that i'm probably slightly paler than most people. And as i mentioned before, I may COLLAPSE anytime. not funny.

so the thing is, when i get married...let me rephrase...IF i get married, i must make sure that my future husband isnt thalassemic too. hmmph. btw, i had a dream last night. mimpi kena patuk ular. does this have anything to do with anything? nah...probably not. not for me at least..huhu..

Natijahnya, "Sudahkah anda menjalani ujian talasemia?"

Amy Mastura (",)

2009-08-30T18:54:00.004+08:00

Slept with a smile on my face last night...;p

'HAPPY Ramadhan with Amy Mastura'...that's what made my day yesterday..

She was everything that i imagined she would be. Down to earth, funny, sweet, with a smile forever pasted on her face...

Met her twice before, once in sarawak, and once in sabah...but this time....it was extra special. i get to spent time with her with less crowd breathing near my neck...for a good 3-4 hours. Even managed to sneak a few chats with her one on one...;p

owh and she kinda reminds me of hanis zalikha in a way...mcm ada iras pulak in certain angles..

yeah i'm HAPPY.

just one pic for a sneak peak...;p

microcytic hypochromic anaemia

2009-08-20T12:28:00.003+08:00

can't help but feel somewhat intelligent whenever i say it...

that's what i was diagnosed with. but that's just the first stage...so i need go for "further investigation".....

i might still be anaemic. But most probably, i'll be thalassemic (setelah digoogle sbb xreti nk eja)....coz my mom just found out that she has minor thalassemia...so yeah...

well this 'so called' condition has almost cost me my new job offer...they said i could "collapse" anytime....sigh...hope not..

so this Pathlab that i went to this morning is gonna determine what my real condition is...whatever it is, wish me luck...

for the job, i mean...

some pics from my phone

2009-07-18T00:37:00.002+08:00

just wanna store some of the pictures i took using my cell. a little momento. each picture sends me back to the time when i took them. and they make me smile..

first up...me n my sis o'ol..always love annoying pictures like this

us again..me trying to look cute but ended up looking choked, as always

the day i received my package of umm zakiyyah's books

my cousin sufi, at his soccer practise...'twas great fun watching lil kids play football...so cute

nabil sufi

a blooming sunflower at my workplace...eng fac, upm.

third eye!! my cute lil doodoll...owh he's not exactly little btw...huhuhu

my brother nazrin, when he just got back from school

the beach near my home...konon2 kmpg nelayan yg aman damai la kan...walaoponnn.

midvalley parking space...amik gamba sbb takut xjumpa keta...i should get rid of this one i know

this was the time when a friend spilled her green apple kasturi when we had dinner at secret recipe alamanda. sedih..

Riri, Kak eli's daughter's birthday

i secretly took this pic at a warehouse sale in damansara n mms it to my mom...bought one for her later (with her money) ;p

little damia..with her crazy hair huhuhu..hey sexy lady!

luv this. geram pipi tembam

our cat, miley, sleeping in a basket...how cute

the three of us... with me barely making it into the picture.

They're HERE!!!

2009-07-14T19:46:00.009+08:00

*Jumping up and down excitedly* The books are here!! The books are here!! i was momentarily hysterical (don't i always...*roll eyes*) when i was handed the much awaited parcel.. syiok banget!!

Here it is...

to: neena kemp

The trilogy;

If I Should Speak

A Voice

Footsteps

and

Realities of Submission

I've been searching hi n lo for these books for so long and now here they are...

came to me directly from The States

*happy*

episodes

2009-07-08T22:25:00.005+08:00

hhmmphh...after a few episodes of unfortunate events that happened lately...i feel kinda depressed, and when i'm depressed, i'll start to feel very lonely...like i'm all alone. like "i'm not alone but i'm lonely" sorta thing, if u know what i mean..

and when i'm lonely, i'll start to miss my family. my home, my cat, i'll bring myself back to the old times and i'll have this hollow feeling inside me that i could not explain..like a jigsaw puzzle with a missing piece..i dunno.

empty. yes, that's it. empty...

asal dramatic sgt entry kali ni? entah.

my achy breaky heart

2009-07-06T23:47:00.007+08:00

i just dont understand myself. my emotional-dramatic-irrational-sensitive self. will i ever find out who i really am? the real me? pelik2. will anybody ever understand me? is there gonna be someone out there who will truly accept me for who i am...no questions asked? without ever being

oh-so-judgmental??

probably not.

i cant even handle myself hahaha....

note to self:

change for the better...

just uploaded..

2009-07-05T15:02:00.012+08:00

had a bit of a chat with kak zai tadi...sambil2 tu dok share gamba2 petunangan nana. pastu baru teringat, masa post pasal pegi majlis nana haritu, tak upload pn gamba2 kan? hmmph..beklah. so let me...

me, meg and zaza on our way to temerloh (dun worry, the car's in a complete stop ;p)

girl's road trip..

the bride to be...

now someone's fiancee

yes. me with the kids...

Barney is a dinasour from our imagination,
and when he's tall he's what we call.....

somehow this particular kid caught my attention...wanna know why?...she reminded me so much of my childhood. i used to look a lot like her, the hair and all..back when i was a sumkinda loner in my own weird way..sigh...painful memories...

Huda in action...cousin nana pny anak...huhuhu...combel.

here and there and everywhere

2009-07-01T12:23:00.003+08:00

hmm...let me just jot a few things down here for safekeeping...

- kak eli pindah fakulti layen..

- men bedminten pukul angin

- mikail meninggal

- columbia asia hospital

- aksi lucah sang cicaks

- durian free

sah? sah malas nk update...

apa lagi ek?

yes, i have short-term memory loss.

should i??

2009-06-17T11:00:00.006+08:00

i'm in a dilemma here. a few circumstances.............and i'm standing all alone, in front of a diverged road. i'm just confused....should i take it? should i be happy? should i be depressed? i choose. yeah i know. yet i still have people around me that will definitely affect my decision. and my decision will definitely give an effect on THEM.

but now, it's like i dont feel anything, my feelings are numb, i dont know what to think, i dont know what to do, i have no idea what to make of ANYTHING right now. GOD help me. help me be the person i'm supposed to be. YOU are the one who knows me best. decisions...decisions...

here's some Robert Frost to sum things up..

The road not taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

Gosh my eyelid's bothering me...it wont stop twitching...i need sleep...;p

nana's engagement

2009-06-10T16:45:00.002+08:00

drove to temerloh with zaza n meg last sunday... left home at 7.30 to pick up meg at the ktm, and off we go. owh before that, had a bit of a pit stop at tmn melati's petrol station for some McD's drive-thru bfast. lepas tol, benti kat tepi jalan and makan!!! took me a good 5 minutes to finish preparing my coffee...hahaha...after bfast...we started our road trip(road trip ke?) bound for temerloh, pahang.

owh lupa lak nk cakap pegi temerloh ni watpe senanyer. okeh. ni nk habaq. pegi nana tunang...eh paham ke tak ni? pegi menghadiri majlis pertunangan (ayat hasil tunjuk ajar zaza) nana.

ye...menarik juge...walupon balik tu agakla kejang kaki sbb jam takhengat...nk tekencing satu hal...nk kencing pn jam...lepas kencing jam lagi...doh stop citer pasal kencing....but it was a fun trip nonetheless... *grins*

congrats nana n im...

rush...

2009-05-31T21:29:00.004+08:00

Ugghhh...i suck at blogging...malas giler...i live my days with words and pictures that i plan to put up on my blog.....pi mana2 je dok karang ayat dlm kepala n amik gamba kononnyer nk post kt cni. sudahnyer?? nan ado!!

agakla bz katanya konon kan...well dua hari ni dok pegi Read Malaysia 09 book fair kat the mines...spending 2 days in a row in a hall filled with books....is heaven. i got this incredible rush that runs thru my body the moment i stepped into the great hall. memang meremang wa cakap lu....HUWAAA!! bestnye!!!

UUuuu...AND...AND...!!! there was this music asia thing going on just outside the convention hall. WHOA!! i tell u....my 2 worlds collide....the two things that make my life go round...books and music!! Things just COULDNT get any better than that...( i wont be surprised if i find myself going there again selagi pameran blom abis....ngehngeh)....and there were LOADS of cheap pianos ( going all WIDE_EYED like a kid in a Hensel and Gretel movie). This is the life.

And so my weekend was filled. and i mean really...FILLED. Alhamdulillah...

diet coke, anyone??

2009-05-06T21:37:00.003+08:00

first time try minum diet coke arini. Saja nk try sbb xpenah try. BLEGGHHHHH.....!!!!! Macam PANADOL!!! And i freakin HATE pills... eeewww...i can still taste it in my mouth...remind me to never EVER choose diet coke EVER again.

out-stationed? not really.

2009-04-24T16:33:00.004+08:00

DAY 1

breakfast in serdang, slangor - lunch in bukit katil, melaka - dinner in seri kembangan, selangor.

DAY 2

breakfast in bangi, selangor - lunch in bukit katil, melaka - dinner in serdang, selangor. WOH!!!! DASAT...

that's a glimpse of how it's like being Dr ct's PA RA for you....go Neena!!

Did Old McDonald have a rabbit in his farm??

2009-04-16T22:11:00.013+08:00

HA....HA...takup2.....Ngeee....COMEY kan? pakai celak bagai....My favourite pic of the month...jd wallpaper seyhhh

Kinda busy lately. Well who isnt? agak malas nk apdet blog sbb blk umah pn wat keje..wlupun mls xhingat nk wat..

so aritu pegi rabbit farm..

and of course...snappy2!!

cam kenggeru

cam puppy

cam biskut salut kelapa wakaka!! eh tak, macam kuih kasui kaler putih HAHAH!!

cam tikus...eee...scary

tinger pendek dao

dok diam2 pakai stokin

introducing...'Aisyah (sebut betol2)...ayat2 chenta

Huwaaa!! can i have it mommy?? pretty pleasee.....with sugar on top..? *sad puppy eyes*

anak2 'aisyah ngan faHri...nampak mata syaaaaaakkk!!!!

cam hamster...pe pandang2?!

cam kambeng...kahkah!!

cam stuffed toy, is it even real??

hope it's not too late...

2009-04-03T21:32:00.008+08:00

It's not too late to apologise, is it? (merasalah nyanyi lagu One Republic bagai, kannn)

well my last entry was a bit harsh..ok it was SUPER HARSH.

so i'd like to squeeze myself dry from all the hatred. And accept. Qada' and Qadar. Ada hikmah di sebalik semua ni....it's just another test.

a test that i didnt get to study beforehand.

just have to look at the glass as half FULL, instead of half empty.

NGEH NGEH..kelakar pulak bila baca balik post tesebut...tetiba terasa takut dgn diri sendiri...WOH WOH!! ayat je yg kemain cam BERANI TAK HINGAT....padahal....takut gak senanye...tulis memang la berani...cuba kalu dh dpn batang idong...mau tekulat2 dibuatnye! HEH!! ok bye...sorry for venting out in this blog...tu je yg bole buat pon...xtau nk wat apa lagi haaa......

For the first time, i didnt cry. unbelievable? believe it. (YAYyyy ME!!! ClapClap!!)

WTF!!

2009-04-02T18:29:00.011+08:00

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAAA....for the first time ever nk wat entry mencarut barut sumpah seranah mak minah kat cni.

WHAT is your FREAKIN problem???
Are you out of your MIND??

Did i DO anything to you?
kenape???? aku betul2 tak paham.

(this line was deleted to protect the wellbeing of the blog..)

i hope you get your butt stuck in the toilet tonight.

to the others, excuse my french. i'm just pissed. sorry.

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sian awatif..;(

I'd like to convince myself that you're just a kid who doesn't know any better. coz if you're not, COWARD is what you are.

Ever heard of karma? yes, that.

Preposterous!

2009-03-26T22:19:00.006+08:00

Free-IQTest.net - IQ Test

LOH???!!!

Impossible....gilo ko hapo iq test neh...tak paham aku. Haruslah jd professor kat Harvard Uni skarang jugak!!

BERTUKAR!!!!!
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I've found my calling!!! Heh. yeah rite.

just before i go to bed...

2009-03-23T23:02:00.004+08:00

Hahaha...dh nk tdo tapi selepas membelek2 blog2 yg baru update, tetiba perasan bahawasanya the entry that i just posted a few minutes ago sama arah tujuannya dgn zaza punya latest entry. ROFL...memey le ada aura gituh...WAH tak sangka kita sedang memikirkan perkara yg sama ye...(she's already fast asleep by the way).....well then, nite homiezzzz...nite everybody....zzzzzzzzz

eczema and routines...

2009-03-23T15:43:00.009+08:00

The title doesnt make any sense, i know..... just forget it.

It's just that,

I'm sick of routines...

I'm sick of waking up in the morning to face the same old, same old, doing the same old same old stuff over and over again.

At the same time, i wonder, where would we be without routines? (adoiii poyo)

I admit I will be lost without such

sence of familiarity, sence of belonging,

comfort and stability. (siyes poyo)

I'd be wandering around aimlessly....in a daze...eh ke dh memang macam tu?

Oh well....I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired of being

sick

and

tired.

I know i should be thankful. MORE than thankful. I know that. Syukur ALHAMDULILLAH...

I should just be thankful that i could still wake up in the morning, knowing that not everyone is that lucky.

I should be thankful that i can still be sick and tired of my life, knowing that not everyone can even be bothered to realize how sick and tired they are.

I should be thankful that i can still whine and cry like a spoilt brat macam sekarang.

When i know very well that i should be the sensible and mature 25-year-old, like i'm supposed to.

But pardon moi, as the title of this blog indicates...I AM NOT.YET. A.WOMAN. MUAHAHAHAHahaha.... go figure.

But still,.......once again. ALHAMDULILLAH.... i really DO have a lot to thank for and appreciate..smile neena. you're alive.

Despite the fact that my eczema's getting worst by the day...and it's getting bigger and bigger and it's

BUGGING ME BIG TIME!!!

lights out kids!!!

2009-03-17T10:46:00.003+08:00

come and give your full support to Earth Hour 2009

do your part. show you care and vote for earth..

just ONE hour, from 8.30-9.30pm, March 28th...your vote counts...

visit http://www.earthhour.org/malaysia for more information...
that's w-w-w-dot-e-a-r-t-h-h-o-u-r-dot-o-r-g-slash malaysia.....(soghe iklan ngan muka cambagus)...

the earth will thank you..;p

*haruslah merasa jadi pengacara kat ending documentary global warming*

sumthing i just discovered

2009-03-14T10:05:00.004+08:00

saje je nk btau kat cni something i just found out few days ago.

cermin tingkap seat belakang myvi takleh bukak sampai habis...yg depan bole pulak. Weird.
I was like ????? rosak plak ke??pulak dahhh.....

but that's just how it is. so there u go. something new everyday...

MALU.

2009-02-27T23:23:00.009+08:00

the title explained it all. that's the only thing and everything that jie, zaza and i felt tonite. i dont even know how to start.

first, let me explain the circumstances. my parents have been looking for a house here in kl-selangor-seremban area for quite a while now. and as i am currently living here. i was supposed to be in charge of looking around and become their eyes and ears n stuff. me being me, i have never gotten around to actually 'search' for a house. ok.

so, it all started when my mom flew over from swk to attend a discussion of some sort in KLCC. she stayed at my new house and all...so it was all cool. the day she went for her meeting, she met an old friend. they had a bit of a chat, and she mentioned about her intention of buying a house here. so this friend of hers told my mom about another old friend of theirs, who happened to be looking for a buyer for his house in bangi lama. and so my mom contacted this other friend, and he told her to get in touch with his wife as he's always travelling and what not. so(brapa byk so dh...) my mom asked me to call the mrs whenever i'm not bz(bz ke?). i finally managed to give her a ring(eh beri cincin?) 2 days ago(betapa bznyer diriku ini). so we agreed to meet tonite..

so(so lagi...sila cadangkan penanda wachana yg lebih bedarik), i went with jie and zaza sbb nana bz wat assgmnt. perjalanan nk pegi memang amat mencabar dan berliku-liku kehidupan. smpai dpn ukm tu belok kanan, terusssss je mmg le scary takhingat. dh mcm p cameron lak(that reminds me...tak blog pon pasal p cameron aritu hmph..), dgn takde lampu, dgn satu lane, dgn bersimpang siur, dgn silau ya amat, dgn, dgn, dgn. dahle ada masalah komunikasi sket ngan aunty tu..dia pny directions agak la mengelirukan. alih2 kitorang sampai kat pekan (and i really mean PEKAN) yg buat kt rasa mcm temasuk dlm citer paloh ataupun pening-pening lalat ataupun embun ataupun sayang anakku sayang. zaman dulu seyh..scary i tell u! pastu plak alih2 kena lalu bawah jambatan yg tesangatla scary bapak with water from who-nows-where is dripping and dripping on my car. dh ler siling (siling ke?) yg rendah sampai i drive tetunduk2 sbb xdapat nk tundukkan bumbung kereta so tepaksa sendiri yg tunduk. rupa2nya dah sesat. pastu pegi pulak kat syarikat mende ntah (refresh my memories guys!) dan kami pn mengambil keputusan bertanya kepada pak guard eh mak guard yg brada d tempat kejadian.

me: boleh tumpang tanya?(jap iklan, kenapa kena tumpang? mcm nk menumpang mandi lak)
sekian2 kat mana?

makgad: hah? (kelihatan spt tidak paham)
xpenah dgr pn. xde nama tpt tu kt cni. cuba tanya ni..(sambil memanggil org lain)

org lain:apa dia? hah? xdela tpt tu..mana ada cni...

pada ketika ini kami mula merasa runsing dan sound effect mmg jelas kedengaran di telinga (jeng jeng jeng...)mcm msk citer hantu pn ada. wujud ke tpt tu? betol ke selama ni dok cakap ngan aunty tu dlm telefon? ke aunty tu pn xwujud? serious bedebar mcm nk tekuar jantung. tiba2 rasa cam nk cr hidden camera je kan, tak kuasa...

pastu makgad pn pggl pulak pakcik bj ijau

pakchik bj ijau :ha..jalan trus, belok kiri, lalu bawah jambatan (bwh jambatan lg? tidak!!)
pastu straiiiiiight je pastu belok kanan.

lain mcm je pakcik ni. aunty tu ckp dkt2 cni je. asal smpi ke ujung sana plak. kompiden plak tu! speaking of confidence....let me continue.

after a series of phone calls ngan aunty tu, akhirnye ktorg smpi ke taman yg dcari2 selama ini. sblm msk tmn tu, dr luar kitorang nmpk umah yg tinggi dan berlampu2 dan mewah...jie pn berkata "entah2 tu umah u neena! huwa!!! kalau betul menariknyerr!!"

so kitorang pn masuk, tgk pakgad nepal tgh tdo nyenyak. berdasarkan arahan aunty, ikut kiriiiiiii je. lps kiri, kiri, lps kiri kiri. dia kata dia tgg kat luar. kitorang pn smpai la ke destinasi bajet yg dituju.

rumah tersebut tesengatlah tinggi dan tersergam mngalahkan rumah qistina spa Q. i was thinking to myself, uuuiihh...takbole blah! mesti ibu n ayah tekejut gler tgk umah bsr mcm ni! mcm citer indon! kitorang pon paking kat rumput smbl jie berkata "kasi senget skit kreta"
kitorang pn kuar dan berjmp dgn aunty tersebut. terdapat beberapa orang jejaka (jie kira ada 4) dan seorang lelaki tua yg tgh tgg dpn rumah...aunty pulak tgh ckp dlm telifon kat tepi taman rumah tu.. neena pn pegi masuk dan nk bersalam2an dgn aunty. dia pn cpt2 menghabiskan perbualan dlm phone dia. lps dia letak hang up, i pn pg salam. i was trying very hard to take her right hand but she insisted on extending her left hand instead. (asal kasi tgn kiri ni?)
lepas sumer dh salam, dia pn berkata,
tangan makcik ni sakit...tekeluar dr soket...

kitorang pon..owhh...(that explains it).

pastu makcik pun tanya...

makcik: dari mana?
me: dari rumah...

makcik: rumah kat mana?
me: seri kembangan

and it hit me!! BAM!!!! whytheheck would she ask me that?? we've been on the phone like so many times b4 i reached here. nape nk tanya?

WE WERE AT THE WRONG HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A split second later, my phone rang...the REAL aunty lyn called!!!

*&^%$#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MALUMALUMALUMALUMALU!!!!!!!!

the moment we realized it, mmg terus tegelak sampai senak dan berlari tebongkok2 menahan perut dan terus meluru masuk ke dalam kereta dan terus MENJERIT LIKE CRAZY sambil keluar2 air mata zaza sbb ketawa kuat sangat. i pn tanpa segan silu dan menangguh walau seminit pun, terus keluar dari paking senget cambagus dan terus blah dgn terbahak-bahak.
tak sempat pn nk ckp sorry kat tuan rumah tersebut sbb dh malu ya amat yg takleh dibendung lagi. bukan stakat muka, satu kepala dah panas terbakar menahan malu bapak! HUWAAAA!!! padan muka! kompiden sangat!! amik kau!!!

Tagged!!

2009-02-23T09:53:00.003+08:00

nisa and zaza tagged me so here goes....

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Have fun!

1. What is your name : Fahareena
2. A four Letter Word : fart huhu..
3. A boy's Name : fahrin ahmad huhuhu…
4. A girl's Name : fara fauzana huhuhu…
5. An occupation : figure skater…
6. A color : fink??
7. Something you'll wear: flannel
9. A food : food. wakaka okok…fettucini carbonara wah gitu!!
10. Something found in the bathroom: fabuloso?? Wahkahkah…
11. A place : filipina
12. A reason for being late : flood
13. Something you'd shout : oh ok…sumthing besides the f word…so urm..FREAK!!!
14. A movie title : forrest gump
15. Something you drink : frappucino chewah!!
16. A musical group : four u2c wakaka!!!!
17. An animal : flamingo
18. A street name : Franklin St.? Sukati aku je…hmph
19. A type of car : ford focus huhuhu..
20. The title of a song : fly by hilary duff

Another one....Here are the rules:• List these rules on your blog.• Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog.• Tell 6 unspectacular quirks of yours

1. i burp a lot (gross i know....just be thankful the air doesn't come out from the other end huhuhu)
2. pathetically emotional
3. when i get angry or over excited, i sound like fasha sandha...errgghh shoot me now.
4. have a habit of talking to myself when no one's around
5. have an amazing tendency to humiliate myself in front of everybody
6. am a bit claustrophobic and praying it doesnt get any worse

2009-01-28T14:00:00.007+08:00

Went to the AJL last Sunday…It was kind of a last minute thing. Extra tickets n puppy eyes n stuff. Didn’t even remember to bring my camera along…!#@$%^&… It was really something. Glad that the one time I get to go, it was a heck of a show. Everyone was superb. Spectacular, I must say.

Ok. Since the internet is bit loco today, I’m composing this in Word. So bolela ceghita panjang2 sket sbb xleh nk surf bagai.

So. We arrived at 8 and hung around the red carpet for a while…saw Que Haidar with Linda ‘fcourse…, Awal, Dyg Nurfaizah, Tam, Edlin, Akma, Farish, VJ Utt with hana Elite??, Fazura (GOR-GEOUS!!) , Fara dhiya(camni ke eja?), Zizi Ezzette(again, camtu ke eja?), Hattan (I’m telling u, I really thot my DAD was walking along the red carpet, seriously..), Nora (with her hubby n sons), a few pondans ( I swear, they really put a lot of effort into looking like REAL women…like whatthe^$%# and why the heck are they strolling down the carpet like they’re sum kinda celebrity?), and a few others yg tak brapa nk dikenal pasti identity mereka…uuuu smpt gak Abg Nas melodi (Fz pnggl Abg Ketak-ketak) sengih2 lalu dpn kitorang…

We sat exactly in the middle, facing the stage thankfully, but unfortunately, way at the topmost box (so we can see everythingß-menyedapkan hati dan perasaan).

I scanned thru evrythng, trying to take it all in. Overwhelming…
As most of u already now, the opening act simply ROCKS!! I was lucky there weren’t any flies in the stadium or else I would’ve choked on a few of ‘em with my mouth gaping like that. That was enuff to get everyone started. And it was only the beginning.

Faizal Tahir was A.MA.ZING. His vocals in Coba was very impressive and Sampai Syurga was simply MTV music-video-worthy

I just found out that the adorable kids from Idola Kecil (HUGE fan, okay) performed near the end of the show. And I was like, WHAAAA……T! nk tgk huwaaa!!
Thus(pekeheynye thus bagai), I searched frantically through Tv3’s website inside and out…and still couldn’t find last night’s show...apparently they refuse to put it up bcoz they don’t freakin want people to freakin WATCH IT!! Memeylerr chekodoq…(bkn memey suhaiza uhuk uhuk)

Ok enuff of this ranting…back to work people. I mean, back to work, neena.

before i forgot. there was an episode right before we went home.

ok. here's what happened. when we first entered the entrance, (bakpo eh enter-entrance? hmmph) diorang tak kasi bwk msk camera n botol air. BOTOL AIR !#%$.... the rest of us managed to get pass the security but somehow jie didnt. the guard asked for her battery(camera). disebabkan time tu agak kalut nk masuk n dia siap ugut "saya dh halau dh brapa org tadi sbb tanak bg camera..keta awk jauh ke saya tak peduli" cheh!!! so jie gave in n surrendered her battery as not to create a scene. botol air tercinta jie pn dia suh tinggal kat luar. Then she asked for his phone no. so it's easier to collect her battery later. and they agreed to meet at the same place later in the night..

So there we were, at the end of the AJL, ready to head home, but before that, tipon security nk mintak bateri camera. bole plak dia ckp turun pegi tpt dia berada nk collect bateri...like whatthe?? kata nk jmp kat sini, ada plak kita nk pegi jmp dia. dia yg sebok2 nk amik bateri orang. lepas membebel2 dlm telefon, last2 dia naik gak...and dia kuarkan bateri dlm kocek dia..guess wat, ada la dua tiga butir je bateri yg ada dlm simpanan dia, padahal yg masuk bekoyan-koyan! sabajela. pastu kitorang pn tanya la, mana pegi botol air. boleh dia ckp dgn muka xde perasaan, cleaner dh buang?? hapelagi, hangen la satu badan!!

I dh start membebel. I was on a roll. Nothing could stop me. The moment I stepped up front, the moment my Fasha Sandha voice surfaced, I was invincible. I may come across as a nerdy geek, but when it comes to practicing human rights, I am on top of my game. I guess the human rights course I took few years back was worth it after all. harusla i berbahas dgn sepenuh jiwa raga malam tu. dah habis cakap, terus berpaling and blah...WAH! cambagus x? agakla...huih penat menaip...the end.

Oh bother....

2009-01-26T22:20:00.005+08:00

i repeat, oh bother. banyak bende senarnye yg nk ditulis di sini. Tapi dok tangguh2 sampai dh telupa dh sume isi penting. "Malaih aku!!!" (diharap dibaca dgn intonasi yg tepat)

uuu...i just hv to add this. just last week, nk bl kad touch n go yg baru. pegila kat stesen minyak dkt ngn kilang beryl's tu ha...memula dok pusing2 kedai mesra tu...kot2 ada benda yg nk dbeli...pastu, tanpa berfikir panjang, terus menuju ke counter lantas bertanya (dengan muka kompiden tak hingat dunia)

neena: Ada kad TM touch baru tak?

tick...tock...

monologue
neena: Dang!! isn't that some ancient comm company or sumthin? Merepek pe lak
aii...

mamat counter: Err Touch n Go eh... (sambil muke kelat tahan
gelak)

neena: ha'a...ngeee...(tepaksa gelak sensorang nk cover malu)
WAKAKAKA!!!!

BONKERS!!

2009-01-16T11:38:00.008+08:00

Yup! We've gone bonkers today. At breakfast this morning, we were like stumbling over our words...we were talking about Gadis Melayu which we happened to watch last night...these are the snippets of our dialogue...

jie : masa soal sesi jawab (which means---sesi soal jawab)
zaza : Afdlin aman ramli (which means---afdlin shauki)
neena : Rahim Rajoli (which means---M. Rajoli) >>>first try
Rahim Rajali >>> few seconds later
Rahim Razoli >>>few hours later
.....and she gave up trying.

Saturday Nite Fever

2009-01-13T15:42:00.011+08:00

terlupa plak kan nk post pasal house warming party cum birthday party damia last weekend. it turned out quite well, i must say. around 20plus guests. it was a bit of a mess at first, sbb asap bbq masuk rumah. but we managed to settle the prob after a while......the poor kids. we had a little trouble contemplating whether it's time to start inviting our guests to eat or not.."korang, nk stat skarang ke?" i was like really nervous the moment the guests started coming...what if sumthing goes wrong? what if we ran out of food? what if HUAAAAAA!!!

ok. just to show you that we really did do everything ourselves FROM SCRATCH ok...huhuhu...bangga tak? nyampah aku ngan diri sendiri...

Behold...

taugeh ye puan2...

bawangzzz

aik? togey lg...

kelihatan bday girl, damia tgh tdo..

bihun...or is it meehun? mee hoon?

gamba tak brapa nk banyak tp...memandangkan bz tak hingat tak boleh blah....

woo..kitorg pny ayam bbq sedap seyh...marinate a hari satu malam...fuh masyuukk...

blow yr candle damia!!

damia's presentss!!!

i'll put up more pictures once i got my hands on them ok?

rumah baru yg bedarik...

2009-01-09T15:32:00.006+08:00

memandangkan ktorang br pindah ke rumah baru yg bedarik....kalu xpercaya, 4 more info pls refer to jie's n zaza's blogs....memey ler....

presenting our indoor flip-flops...sizes as follows:

zaza - 9

neena - 9 1/2

nana - 10

jie - 10 1/2

dunno why the sizes are as such...salu i size 5/6 je...skema br kot WAKAKA!!

OOhhh...oooohhh...kitorang nk wat house warming party cum birthday party damia this saturday. it's gonna b awesome! we're having about 40 guests. take a look at our invitation card!!

which we sent virtually je....senang ye technology zaman skrg wahwahwah!!!

Weddings---Episode 2----PakLong

2009-01-05T11:48:00.026+08:00

my paklong bersanding last dec.

venue: jalan jagung 13, BBU, JB.

pengantin: paklong & maklong huhu..

sebelum........kelihatan paklong taksiap lagi sambil memeluk tubuh

maklong tgh get ready

uda & uda

kemah bagai...

nenek a.k.a ibu pengantin

tajuk: lubang hidong neena
taken by: nabil sufi

(height-a little above 2feet i think, age-6)

the bride...

the groom

photographer (me) bajet saiful nang bagai

bajet lagi... (suka gamba ni)

ajk majlis

here comes the groom?

there he goes..as usual, paklong wat bende yg takpenah dibuat org, amik gamba orang. have u ever...and i mean HAVE U EVER seen such a thing? pengantin amik gamba orang? well when it comes to my paklong, it's not unusual at all.

tol PLUS

usu & pak usu jaga tol huhu..

usu n paklong

kompang yg sgt bedarik. siap gendang-gendang seyh

silat impromptu

tol LDP

SERANGG!!!

tol NKVE

he's at it again. now taking pictures of his bride..

uda n maklong..

kelihatan nenek2 di hadapan megutip tol yang terakhir...

amik gamba penonton...kechoh sekampong gelak guling2

time panas2, heaven..aaahhhh.....

combelnyer!!

outfit keluarga pengantin lelaki huhu...

ps- korang penah mkn peria yg wat mcm asam? sedap tp ujung2 dia ada pait2...tp sdp gak..

weddings---episode 1----SARAH

2009-01-02T08:59:00.016+08:00

went to sarah's wedding last year..chehh...cam lama sangat je. last december..kat dewan perdana Felda. I amazed myself (well not really, i've always known i could do it...*muntah purple*) by finding my own way to Dewan Felda dgn sekelip mata (walaupun pusing KLCC 2x)

Yasmin n her newly-wed sis, Sarah

That's me. Macam kena kejutan letrik + tercekik buah berangan

the dress...

the pelamin...

the dewan..

yasmin, the pengapit

the emcees...this is the best of the 4 pics i took...so ya...

cake-cutting...

baby qistina's stroller..

Qistina...

baby qistina n grandma..

@#$%^&....the result of my first-time-make-upkan-diri sendiri-kat-dlm-kereta-kat-parking lot-dgn-chy-lampu-kereta-yg-xbrp-nk-terang-and-tak-nampak-apa-yg-ditenyeh-ke-muka-apabila-cermin mata-dibuka-kerana-terlalu-rabun......#$%^&....hanco bagai.

budak tudung pink dah jd makcik tudung pink. need i say more.

my handbag overflowing with bunga telur and table gifts..

bak kata abg pengantin, telur2 dlm bunga2 telur tersebut boleh dimakan untuk breakfast keesokan harinya. oleh itu diberi sampai tiga..ingin diberi lebih tetapi terpaksa ditolak sbb x muat.

stayed on till midnight so mlm tu kena sleep over at yasmin's. keesokannya bertolak ke upm dari kl seawal jam 7 pagi dan berpeluang merasa sekelumit kehangatan org2 kl pg ke pejabat dan trus bersyukur dgn apa yg ada....

2009-01-02T08:33:00.006+08:00

remember when i got my RM600plus rebate? f'course u dont. ntah pape, la i ni. well i spent the first ringgits treating my family to secret recipe in miri. my mom had this..

my dad had this...

yes. that's my dad u see up there..

my brother had this..

my sis ate this...

naturally i ordered the same exact menu. air pn sama huhu...lamb nyum nyum..

presenting miley ngan pose tak larat nak meniti hidup yg penuh pancharoba...

The day the earth stood still

2008-12-16T09:54:00.007+08:00

Went to Alamanda with nana the other day. had lunch at secret recipe. i had chicken bleu and nana had a new not-yet-on-the-menu steak dish. so, we ate and talked and laughed ourselves full. after settling the bills, we received 2 movie-ticket redemptions. WAAA!! Bedariknyer! Tgk wayang free!! So we went straight up to redeem our tickets and opted for "the day the earth stood still", which was premiering the next day. how cool is that?! Keanu Reeves...*drools*
by the way. twas a great movie. could've made a better ending though..tp ok la.

A GRUELING TASK. not for the faint-hearted

2008-12-09T15:30:00.013+08:00

Ok. Here's the deal. I'm on a mission. A mission to preserve the art of ketupat-anyaming.

Celebrated aidiladha recently, so semangat tu tiba2 dtg when my roomate, kak just bought some of those daun utk wat ketupat. i was determined. i was set.

With the little help from my housemates....

Tenaciously, i began.

5 minutes later
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not too bad...not bad at all....

10 minutes later..

ok. i think i got it now..Yep. Easy Peasy!

hrrrrmmmm...on second thought........

BACK TO THE DRAWING BOARD PEOPLE!!!!

As u can see in the pictures above, i seem to hv a bit of a fight with the lil creature, hancor dan layu daun2 dibuatnyer.

So i figured i need a new pair of leaves(is that wat u call 'em? leaves??) Since the ones i had wouldn't cooperate..

Here goes.

Chants *I think I can. I think I can. I think I can.*
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Darn it! Did i just invent a new ketupat-plaiting method? didn't think the tails are supposed to be coming out from the same end like that. @$^%*^#$%@#!!!

ok. I'm ok. I'm gonna get it. For sure this time. ok.

*GASP!* Need I say more? Who's da man? I'm the man.

Incredible. i know.

Realizing my talent, i decided to try a different kind of anyam.

Aha. I'm goooood.................

Oooohh!!
Met KungFu Panda at alamanda last weekend

I would've hugged him if i could change myself into a kid.
Really I would.

Come to think of it, I was terrified of those huge larger-than-life monsters when i was little.
Ran away from Minnie Mouse once. Hmmph.

FUUIIIIYOOOHHHWAAAIIIICCCAHHHHH!!!

2008-12-05T09:41:00.005+08:00

Wah gempak tak tajuk? saje je nk bg saspen walaupon saya percaya kalu orang baca pon mesti tak timbul sebarang perasaan yg teruja atau terharu whatsoever..tp takpe. i mmg seorang yg sgt suka syookk sendiri. dalam pada itu, i jg seorang yg lupa daratan, kacang lupakan kulit dan cik tenggiling. huhu...long story.

it's been quite some time tak update kan? haritu cuti lama balik rumah. sbb kontrak dh habis. ni br sambung blk. kat rumah, nk online pon tak berkesempatan. maklumla...kalu tak jd suri rumah. asyik tgk tv je. alangkah bahagianyer duniaku. pastu dok ulang-alik pg miri sbb tahlil arwah kakek.

o'ol pun br habis SPM so dia pon dgn seronoknyer meninggalkan sekolah bersama-sama kotak2 dn bagasi yg banyak ya amat. (tp blum dpt kalahkan kakak dia time blaja dulu huhu)

hmm...tak lama lg dh nk raya haji. tak balik nmpk gayanya sbb br je blk kan. lgpon tiket skrg ni smkin membuak-buak harganya.

wedding invitations pon tak henti2 coming my way. which my mom responds with a rather curious question...when will the wedding cards be coming their way?? hmm...very curious indeed.

still havent finish reading "a prayer for owen meany". haiiyjjooo...lmbtnyer budak ni bc. mcm tenggiling. again, long story.

We miss u so much gramps..

2008-11-15T10:14:00.004+08:00

my dear grandfather just passed away. he went on a holy friday, november the 7th, 2008. and i didnt get to see him before he died... ;(

terkilan giler. i was merely two days late. my flight was scheduled on the 9th and so i was late.

Al-FATIHAH...

ghayer lagi

2008-11-04T09:24:00.006+08:00

sisa gamba raya bersama sahabat handai.

ni masa nk pg umah Dr Siti (my sprvisor)

neena. kak ani. nana. jie.

kat umah Dr ct, makan soto ayam n desert ini yg sgt menarik.

a painfully disastrous attempt to ~~pose like a model in a magazine~~ pose-as-if-am-staring-off-into-nothingness

neena n jie.

*me looking exceptionally kindhearted, modest and loving*

and another one..

2008-11-02T10:39:00.001+08:00

and 4 days after jie's birthday is nana's birthday.

this is nana.

at Johnny's Alamanda.

shashi, meg and nana

*banana split pn ada skali*

me and jie

*i look like i was gonna explode. i always look like that. WHY?*

sorry tak banyak gamba sbb lapa sampai tak hingat dunia.

another birthday..

2008-10-29T09:40:00.004+08:00

5 days after my birthday, it was jie's birthday.

this is jie.

*muka yang paling terharu di dunia* priceless. huhu..

hasil idea Encik Taboo kepunyaan Jie, iaitu Encik Mus, kitorg celebrate kat taman wetland, putrajaya.

this was her cake. ooh. sinful.

*look at me. muka seorang budak yg sgt baik hati. jangan mudah terpedaya. u have been warned.*

*cute picture. neena buat aksi manja??!#$% = eeewww.*

the aftermath.

note to self : a hug is good for you. don't be scared.

neena (yg besar), nana, jie, meg, kak amy

bibir terjuir. NOT. GOOD.

a brave attempt nk buat kelainan dlm hidup. did it work? u tell me.

Errr. no comment.

My 24th on the 24th...

2008-10-24T11:17:00.016+08:00

It's October 24th already?? seems like it was only yesterday i celebrated my 23rd bday. and today i'm 24. on the 24th. And the time is 10.24 am. Like october 24.ok. stop it. ignore me.

A year older. Wiser? hmm...that's something to think about.

We ~~celebrated~~ (perasan) had lunch kat pizza hut. and i shamelessly requested for a birthday ~~cake~~ pancake from the waiter person, saying that it's my birthday (it said so on the menu..."if it's yr bday, you get a free birthday cake"....i promise! tak tipu...)

neena...tolong hulurkan senyuman yg lebih ikhlas.

nana, jie n meg.

*the thumbs ups belong to me and nisa..*

meg n shashi

bday girl and her 'pizza hut not-so-pan cakey birthday cake'
*kelihatan kak amy di sisi dgn muka yg...hmm..undescribable*

walupun pelik...tp sedap. kalu korang tak malu cam i, jgn lupa mintak ye....

OOooooh!! my birthday presents..

From Meg,

bday card yg sangggat commmbelll...

and this...

with this inside..

This is what i thot it was. = A cat wearing a top hat.

And naturally, i was wrong. meg corrected me and showed me what it really is.

= a cat cushiony thingy to put your phone in. see? cute kan?
*i know. i know. try yr best to ignore the ugly phone. concentrate on the cute cat, ok.*

And from jie,

A pretty mug. Yes. I am considerate. Indeed. *vomits*

and some other stuff.

Thanks everyone! luv ya!

banjir kilaT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-17T15:35:00.016+08:00

*sound effect bunyi guruh*.........

fuihhh...sgt mendasyatkan!

first time mengalami perkara yg sedemikian rupa. panic bagai nak rak kasut!! Lihat!

Okay...that wasn't exactly how it looked like but yes. mmg keta tenggelam sampai 3 quarters of the tyres (maknenyer macam air tu sampai separuh tayar bulat tu, tapi tinggi sikit. leh imejin x? )

ok. enuff with the tyres, back to the banjir kilat. ok. mlm tu (around maghrib), jie(my hsemate) saje je menjenguk keadaan di luar rumah memandangkan hujan tak berhenti dari td. tetiba kitorang pon tenganger dgn luasnyer dan menjerit dgn agak kuatnyer (lupa nk bgtau, i pon sibuk menjenguk skali kat blakang jie) apabila melihat keadaan keta2 kat dpn umah yg hampir ditenggelami air, tp nasib baik tidak, cuma tenggelam 3 per 4 daripada paras tayar yang bulat itu (ok neena, pls stop with the freaking tyres).

setelah mendengar jeritan kami, maka nana and wana ( my other 2 hsemates) pn begegas sambil berkata "what's the commotion??" @ "pesal??" we didnt hv to say anything. lps tu, semua pn begegas amik kunci keta dan begegas pegi mendapatkan kereta masing2. (me ~~saying~~ screaming with pain, "MY BRAND NEW CAR!!!!!")

masa kuar tu, air dpn umah dh sampai takat 3/4 (okay, i really should stop with the fraction tutorial) daripada betis. pastukan...masa kitorang begerak mengharungi banjir ke arah keta msg2, kelihatan sampah sarap yg berbagai bentuk dan saiz ($#*!%) men lalu...je kat depan kitorang dengan muka takde perasaan. EEEEE. YEWWWW.

masuk je dlm keta (sambil bersyukur sbb mash ada plastik sbg alas kaki sbb blom beli kapet getah (kapet getah??!?? taktau pe nama mende alah) tangan terus menggigilgigil tak ingat dunia. kitorang pon memandu dgn selonyer (sbb nana kata kena slo2) mencari tapak yg tidak ditenggelami 3/4......ok2. tapi masa tu, the only thing that's been going on in my mind is "nak kuar serdang!! mmg nebes smbl menelefon ayah dan sebagainyer. banyak kali jugak la stuck sbb air semakin mengganas. tgk kat tepi jalan seberang dh ada keta yg dh tenggelam 2/4 @1/2 @ separuh @ setengah (bukan tayar! tapi kereta.)

time stuck2 tu la nana tesempak mamat hensem wakaka!!! *laughing ~~jealously~~ 'lady-like'ly*

lepas tu me and nana lepak kat luar taman sri serdang (tak jauh pon) smbil menunggu air surut. pastu nk blk air msh tak surut2. pastu pegi lepak umah kak emy mkn kek coklet ngan air neslo *drools*
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IKLAN

"Every month at the quarter moon, there will be a monsoon in your lagoon"
quoted from JUMANJI (1995)

the monsoon is really killing me. sigh...
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balik je umah...kitorang kena cuci TOILETSSS!!! (notice the 'S' es? that means we had to clean THREE freakin toilets!! ) sbb air masuk dr mana ntah. (hopefully bukan dr lobang mangkok tandas @#$%^ sori men'tett' uhuhu)

and we wash and scrub the toilets happily *grinch grin* all through the night.

THE END.

She's here!

2008-10-14T10:33:00.009+08:00

She's here. She's finally here. my baby ;)

born: october 11th 2008
colour: black

when i first saw her. she was drenched. it was a downpour before i came and get her. poor thing. sedih jek tgk dia dlm keadaan sebegitu ghuper. nonetheless, i'm very very thankful. syukur Alhamdulillah....tak semua orang dapat peluang macam ni. like my father said, "now you don't have to rely on others anymore". he's definitely right.

It's not that i was in desperate need of a car....it's just that i'm tired of having to ask for help each time i get errands from my supervisor, having to frantically search for a cab everytime one of my parents came over to kl so i can meet them before it gets dark, having to be drenched and shivering in the rain to meet my dad in kl, having to ask for a ride or call a cab just to get to the commuter station, having to wait for the weekend just so i can go out on my own and withdraw some money....hmmm...but i'm thankful. it wasn't the best life but i know there's always someone out there who's got it much much worst than me.

and now, it's like a huge truck has been lifted away from my shoulders..now i can go over to my aunt's by myself without them having to pick me up and send me back. now i can go back to jb by myself without having to ride with my aunt's family and getting her children all crammed up coz of my oversized urrmm...you-know-what (my hips never tell a lie lol) and my luggage...?....u don't wanna know.

wanna see how she looks like? here she is.....

TADAAAAA!!!!!!

pose, darling, pose...that's it! gimme more attitude!!! ;p

even though her tag (plate no) wasn't exactly what i would have hoped for, -we were at wits end trying to somehow get my fav numbers on her but i guess it just wasn't meant to be...maybe my next car? *wink wink*- i'm beyond grateful. *extra huge grin*

TOO.LARGE.TO.HUG.

eid 2008

2008-10-08T09:48:00.009+08:00

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Go Crazy!!!!!

kuikuikui.....

lama pulak tak update...

aritu, raya tak blk swk..blk jb je...maklomla...orang dah lupa daratan mmg mcm ni...uhuhu..
those are a couple of the 'routine' pictures yg kitorang mst amik kat tpt yg sama, posisi yg sama every year...

this year tak blk kampung kat pontian..atas sbb2 yg tak dpt dielakkan. insyaAllah there won't be any problems as such lepas ni..*wink wink*

raya kat jb mmg best...sbb all my extended family duduk sebumbung...kecoh gak dgn suara nenek yg membebel kat cucu2 dia non-stop. huhu...tapi kitorang ni semua dh kira baik dah. berbudi pekerti mulia gitu. tapi tak sah pulak kalu tak dengar dia membebel. bagaikan tak lengkap hidup ini rasanya...oh nenek. kaulah pujaan hatiku. ngeee...

ice city...

2008-09-03T08:41:00.006+08:00

went back home last weekend. 3 hari je..ntah apa2 kan? pegi sabtu, blk kl isnin. first day puasa tu smpat sahur je kat umah. tak dan nk berbuka bersama ahli keluarga yg terchenta. oh! terkilan rasanyer. tapi takpe...it was definitely worth it walaupun sekejap. anything to be with yr family rite?

so i arrived in bintulu on saturday lebih kurang kol 3...malam tu, makan masakan ibu yg wlupun simple tapi cukup menyayat hati dan perasaan uhuhu...
the next day, kitorang bekpes kat kedai 'makcik slow'...mmg melekat la nama kedai tu...tak tau pun apa 'tajuk' sebenar kedai makan tu. layan woti canai ngan teh 'c' special. fuh masyuuukk. pastu kitorang bertolak p miri. i drove the whole two hours to miri, with my brother snoring next to me, and my parents at the back seat. hehehe...seronoknyer!!! loved it.

dah sampai miri, p skolah o'ol (my sis) and seludup dia kluar sekejap (sbb dia skolah asrama and she's in form 5). siap tunduk2 lg dalam keta takut pakguard nampak. my dad said "takpe, kalu kena apa2, ayah tanggung" chewah. mak akami pun bekobar2 keluar satu family pi mkn buffet at a hotel in miri (beghiyer kononyer sbb dh lama tak mkn luar sesama n esoknyer dh nk puasa huhu).....

At the lunch table my dad said "besnyer sume anak2 ayah ada makan sesama. kalu tak....angah ada, along takde. kalu along ada, angah takde. nazrin jugak yg sentiasa ada". i pon teharu la pulak wlupun my dad has been saying that a lot lately. everytime we got together. padahal 3 beradik je pon...bersepah2 je anak2 dia ni ha...

there's a new spot in town (my town bintulu) called ice city...and these are among the yummies

that's me enjoying my ice cream

with my brother, nazrin. poor ool uhuhu..

08.08.08

2008-08-08T11:07:00.005+08:00

Wa...bedariknyer...arini 080808...i bet musti ramai kawen arini kan? hmm...saje je nk anta post yg tak brpa nk post ni pada hari ini yg bertarikh 080808...kuikuikui...sengaja je nk tulis 080808 banyak kali. okla. bnyk keje ni...

WAH tak? haha..sj je wat gempak..padahal bukan reti pon wat mende alah ni ha...chiao! happy 080808!! uhukuhuk.. (",)

bukan lupa tp tak berapa nk hingat..

2008-08-01T12:09:00.005+08:00

wah telupa lak nk upload gamba zaman tok kaduk ni...saje je..mungil tak?

gamba2 ni cuci free masa promotion maxis tu...amik gamba...dia terus print kan jd postcard..(",)

tulang rapuh...

2008-08-01T11:58:00.003+08:00

nampaknyer...dh tua dh kita ni yee.....amat. dgn tulang lutut i yg suka nk meletup-letup cam gunung berapi ni ha....skarang jie plak yg sakit urat bahu serta tengkuk. slah tido gamaknyer...shian pulak tgk gelagat dan aksi dia yg takleh nk toleh blah kiri, kalu toleh kena pusing satu badan. kalu naik keta, ada bump, maka terdengarla sayup2 suara mungil mengaduh kesakitan. namun begitu, berat mata memandang, berat lg tulang belikat yg menanggung kesakitan..sabo ye jie...get well soon!!

birthday boys

2008-07-29T10:41:00.013+08:00

last week we celebrated these 2 dudes' birthday...

Mus and Shashi

well u figure out which one's which...

presenting 'hamlet' the birthday cake, saying..."to be eaten , or not to be eaten. that is the question"

ecececeh...tewah tewah...

foohhh...ptuii....oppp gigi tecabot..

Cak!!! ini dia kak amy kita...merangkap pengerusi majlis ye, amat ye...

Bz Bz Bz....

Let's party!!!

Hep...hep...nk kena babab kak amy ni...

kak amy besama tetamu2 yg turut sama memeriahkan majlis chewah!

sila telengkan kepala anda. dh upload, lupa nk pusing...malas kuikui...

Look at what we did to keta mus...dengan masa yg sangat suntuk and tangan yg mengigil-gigil takut kedapatan dgn tuan punya keta sblm tiba waktunya.
Dhler masa tgh nebes2 menjahanamkan keta, dtgla pulak pak guard dok tanya sahsiah keluarga dan sebagainyer kat ktorang. memula dia igt kitorang( i ngan kak amy ye yg wat keje2 amal ni) kacau keta org kot. slps ktorang citer nk kenakan member sempena bday dia, stat la pulak dia nk beborak...layan je ler....

his first words..."HARAM JADAH!!!"

kashian deh loe...

kebetulan that day gaji br masuk...ktorang pn konon2 nk tmpg mus pi bank...keta sumer jauh...mintak dia anta kitorang sikit2 pi keta...padahal nk turun tgk keta dia smbl mengambil gamba. yg penting...to witness the look on his face when he took the first look at his beloved car. WAHKAHKAH *gelak evil*

THE END.

farah buntat..

2008-07-24T08:44:00.005+08:00

this post is dedicated strictly to miss farah (whose real name is not even farah, uhuhu..)

here she is..

oopss.. sorry. my bad. that's her car.

this, is her.

Dia dh balik ke kampung halaman sbb dpt keje lain. tak jd RA cam kitorang dah...we've only known her for a month and a half...tp tetiba jd emosyenel lak time dia nk balik. menangis bagai nak rak tak hingattt!! kuikuikui...

farah, me and nana kat yoshinoya midvalley.

sorry ar farah. banyak lak tpt makan yg kita x brapa nk sempat pg sesama. sampai nk makan roti kat old town pon tak dan.

neway, farah. it was fun while it lasted. hope we'll see each other very soon. jgn luper kat kitorang kat cni...;) nice knowing you my dear. All the best...take care..bye..

have a break..have a cookie

2008-07-08T08:35:00.005+08:00

these are some of the stuff we did last week masa break xbrapa nk ada keje lps lunch kat the mines.

ini dia perasmian nana's "chek yam jr." oleh cik farah yg mendermakan sejumlah wang sebanyak 50sen kepada tuan empunya "chek yam jr."

smile for the press!!

farah: nana, i'm like freakin bored
nana: aha.

farah: nah makan le biskut ni...farah suap ni ha..nyampah tol. banyak lg keje nk buat ni.
nana: tanak la...tamau tamau

farah: sapa nak, toloooooooooongla amik biskut ni. aku malas la nk pegang
nana: peace! word.

midvalley weekend

2008-07-08T08:33:00.005+08:00

ni gamba patung2 masa promotion maxis..org betol upenyer...

mesti kejang otot n pala otak dorang ni...

dila n her sis shikin (or is it syikin? or shiqin?)

lunch at laksa shack..

a day with damia

2008-07-07T12:07:00.005+08:00

last weekend baby mia and mama mia slept over at our house. bedarik(menarik) tau.. dh besar dh mia ni ha.. dh pandai nk nyanyi2 gitu. she's a more happier baby now. much less crying.. ekeke...good job damia!!

here are a few updates of the little princess..

awww...isn't she adorable?

dua budak itam

2008-07-04T11:26:00.004+08:00

last nite dok pakai mask itam ngan nana. didapati hasilnyer adalah sepeti berikut ye...

kids, please don't try this at home

ni nana...sempurna gitu.

n this is me....at least a quarter of my face... i sj je nk try, tu yg wat tang dagu je tu..memula nebes gak takut tetiber tumbuh junggat keesokan harinye wakaka...

nk bukak mende alah ni sangat menyakitkan hati ye...terseksa jiwa dan raga dan bakul. seb baik i pakai kat janggut je. nana lah yang tepaksa menanggung segala-galanya...kuikuikui

bakat tebenam

2008-07-03T11:01:00.007+08:00

sajer je nk menunjukkan bakat tebenam yg rasanya tak akan timbul2 dlm masa tedekat ni...ni ha barang 2,3 keping gamba yg i amik sejak dua menjak ni. sungguhpun takbrapa nk ada camera canggih ala2 photographer handalan semalaya, namun begitu i sangat sayang ye akan camera pemberian ayahanda dan bonda terchenta chewah..

lone tower...lost without her twin..

suker pokok ni...

cahaya keimanan yg tepancar di sebalik himpunan awan yg berarak mendung kelabu wazzeehhh wazzeehhhh *mintak izin pijam trademark yencek taboo*

cfd

2008-07-03T10:09:00.007+08:00

adoi peningnyer wat cfd ni. dahler takbrapa nk paham. tepaksa la meronggeng seketika di sini. cam blur je tgk pipe yg takbrapa nk siap dr last month sampai sudah. doctor nk next week!! tidaaakkkkk!! *sambil melompat tejun dr krusi*

well my doctor/sprvsor just came back from canada. had something to do with her research n stuff...

came back with chocolates n candies n these...

for me, nana and farah...the minnies are from disneyland n the dora is from the universal studios...(if u can see me now, i tgh senyom macam kerang yg takbrapa nk busuk...ngeee) thanks doc!!

kitorang siap berebut lg nk yg 'dora the explorer' sbb yg tu yg paling comel skali. last2 tpaksa cabut undi. and me and nana had to settle with our minnie mouses while fara gladly took dora. uhuhu...

^tingat gegula perisa ala2 buah berangan yg sedap contohnyer di sini

^tetiba rindu ngan pak-pak guard and abang-abang guard lama fac eng.

^guard2 yg baru takbrapa nk menarik la...tak friendly, n tak brapa nk memberangsangkan
jiwa...

a fairly 'sepi' weekend

2008-07-01T11:38:00.011+08:00

dh tgk sepi...

sgt syahdu ye buat pen'sepi'-pen'sepi' di luar sana...(me excluded uhuk..) watched it last weekend with 2 of my friends....

sblm tgk citer tu, the mines ala2 mcm dh tutup la...so kitorang lepak tenggok ikan2 kat tgkat bwh skali tu...sambil memikirkan masa depan yg tak berapa nk jelas kelihatan ni kan...smbil nyanyi lagu 'with you' yg dipasang di kedai belakang kitorang...pastu ade la sorang akak ni tgh dok bg ikan makan roti leftover dr kedai tpt dia keje(nama kedai tidak dapat dinyatakan di sini bg menjaga kewibawaan pemilik dan pekerja di kedai tersebut..).

and dia pon pass2 roti kat kitorang. maka kitorang pon dengan seronok dan berhati wajanya pon mencarik2 woti itew dan membuang ke pelayan...eh silap...membaling ke arah ikan2 japanese carps yg sedang kelaparan di dlm tasik itew. i pon ape lagi...ala2 excited tp tak berapa nk terkinja-kinja sambil melihat aksi ikan2 yg makan woti yg i baling kat dorang. akak tu pulak pi amik lg stok woti2 yg tak abis dijual dan memberikannya kepada pihak kami untuk diberikan kepada pihak ikan2 betuah terbabit. seronoknyer kami!!!

kemudian, dgn tidak disangka-sangkanyer...dia membawe pule 4 paket woti pelbagai perisa yg setiap paket ada 6 bijik woti di dlmnyer...lantas dia memandang ke arah i seraya berkata 'woti ni elok lagi...nak buang sayang, nak tak?' dengan malu dan tersipu2, i pon berkata 'takpe ke?' dia pon kata 'takpe, amik la... banyak ni'...justeru dgn takde idongnyer i pon mengambil apa yg dihulurkan sambil mengucapkan terima kasih dgn penuh sopan-santun dan budi pekerti yang mulia...alhamdulillah...rezeki jangan ditolak...bole wat sarapan esok. ngeeee....

ha...pasal citer sepi lak...spt yg dinyatakan di atas, sgt menyentuh jiwa ye....sinematografi (entah pekebende ntah) sangat cantik, kaler gamba sangat cantik, angle2 shot yg diambil sgt cantik, dan soundtrack sgt best...ehehe...so disarankan korang p la tgk ye....huhuu...

tp kalu korang rasa takbes lak nnt, silala buang i ke pelayan ye...i tak kesah pon...kuikui...

ooooh...and p/s: CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE....... TAKE THAT HIDEOUS, HORRENDOUS, REVOLTING AND GHASTLY WIG OFF HER HEAD??!!! AND ARREST THE HAIRSTYLIST FOR HUMANITY OFFENCE!!! rambut itu tersanggat mengganggu hidup i ok....ishhh...tetibe rasa cam nk cekik orang kalu tingat kat wig tu..

sonoknyer...

2008-06-11T11:13:00.003+08:00

besnyer aritu balik kampongg.....amik cuti seminggu tak tahaaaannn..

hmm...yg best tu sblm blk lg dah rasa mcm brada di tanah airku...sbb kat klia time nk tgg msk plane dh dgr org keliling dok ckp bhs ibunda...sengih cam kerang sensorang la kat situ kan...ngeee....

had a blast coming home dgn berbekalkan my very own money in my pocket...duit hasil titik peluh dan keringat mencari rezeki di perantauan..kuikuikui....both my parents pon cuti so sangat seronok yer...bersama seluruh ahli keluarga

sampai2 je, esoknyer trs pegi majlis kawen ok...siap sampai 3 pasangan lagi...tp dua kenduri la...entah kenapa asal blk je asyik dok pegi majlis kawen je kejenyer...ekeke...

oops..okla. nk smbung study cfd blk ni. kena kembali ke jalan yg benar. babai!

after 5 years

2008-05-15T15:13:00.004+08:00

last weekend juper memeber matric kat midvalley. tgk gamba jela ek..nah.

long lost friends...shimah, polli, neena(sebok nk show off hbag ker cek kak...), nana, siti. this pic was taken just before watching "what happens in Vegas"...klakar seyh..

pas tgk movie lapo. ikan bakar....cendol...

this pic...me likey!!! yummy fries,,,,gegege

good ole' McD's chocotop vanilla ice cream....

tengokla....tengokla...tengok!!!

2008-05-09T11:58:00.006+08:00

nk kongsi gambo jap...
sila2...

ni la anak angkat i...Damia...

shimah, ct, neena...

Meg, Mus, Jie, Neena, Kak Amy....RA-RA yg sanggat bertauliah dan berdedikasi.

purple day..Neena, Kak Just, Jie....ala2 hari raya di taman sri serdang

tasik kat fakulti eng upm...air yg tenang jgn dsangka tiada biwaywak. (seriously, we act saw one trying to cross the road tp dia patah blk ke kampong halaman sbb nebes byk kereta)
Why did the biwaywak cross the road? ekekeke...

borak2

2008-05-09T11:03:00.004+08:00

bz jugek kononnyer sejak dua menjak dh koje ni chewah. namun begitu sempat lagi nk borak2 ni sambil2 membzkan diri ni kan. dah la kena sentiasa bersiap sedia ala2 doktor ni. i'm like on call all day. dapat gak merasa jd dokter neh. ekeke...

ni tgh berdiskusi ni ha...dgn Kak Amy, Jie, Mag and Shashi. Japgi nk mkn McD ni. Dh prektis siap2 nk mkn beger free ngeee....

Breath in........

"Two all-beef patties, special sauce, lettuce, cheese, pickles, onions, on a sesame seed bun"

Breath out....

kla. nk smbung meeting ni. chiao!!

on the job

2008-03-14T11:26:00.003+08:00

i'm just going with the flow ni...skang jd RA kat UPM serdang. (jadi anak perantau la i skang ni ha...silakanlah nyanyi lagu dendang perantau) ;p kalu de rezeki leh la sambung masters. harap2 dpt handle sumenyer. satu big problem skang ni is nk mencari tempat tinggal. dok merempat mengadu domba kat umah member je skang ni.

i'm overly excited sampai kalu i melompat ni mesti tembus ceiling...sonoknyer!!! sebab tak lama lg ada KLIB iaitu adalah yakni suatu book fair yg i dh lama tingin nk pegi. Akhirnya impian i bakal menjadi kenyataan. InsyaAllah...tak saba rasanyer.

that's all then.
i'm half way there....but still.....not yet a woman.
Cheers!

elections!!

2008-03-08T19:43:00.003+08:00

kiki..today was my first time 'mengundi'...sumer org jaga kat situ tesengih2 tgk i...malu i...dahler tpt i undi tak sama ngan my parents. dorang kat skolah teknik, i kat kidurong. ntah pape jek..nonetheless, great experience.

nothing to loose

2008-03-04T17:10:00.003+08:00

well, i'm just gonna try my luck here. I'm accepting this offer as my way of finding what's best for me. considering i'm not doing anything at the moment..i've got nothing to loose. In the mean time I hope this will open a door to a world full of possibilities and oppurtunities. Wish me luck!

what's up?

2008-02-16T22:21:00.003+08:00

hey there! boringnyer..did u watch the finale for TARA 2? i'm pretty dissapointed with how it turned out. i was rooting for either Mark & Rovilson or the Malaysian girls to grab the money...oh well.

And the grammy's...i was like totally hooked coz there were lotsa awesome piano action. Me likey!!

just finished reading an old famous american lit novel 'to kill a mockingbird' and it has become one of my favs...u guys should try it!

hmm...lookin forward to 'jumper'...seems like a great movie. well. bye!

guess i'm better off alone...

2008-01-23T13:27:00.001+08:00

Somebody's going mad. And it ain't me. I've ALWAYS BEEN a bit unbalanced. so yeah. it ain't me.

p/s: i think i've got myself a stalker. help! save me!